Falcon, that happened to me two years ago. I ended up in intensive care for a couple of weeks, then on a ward for a month. I felt very sorry for myself, having no husband. I had looked after him for 15 years, and he wasn't there for me when I needed him.
However, if he had been alive, he would have had to go into a home as he couldn't be left on his own.
My family keep me so busy, teaching my grandson five days a week this term, that I do not have time to think. I fall asleep when he goes home most days. I do not tell them about the pain in my back when I worry if it's the same thing happening again, as I can see the fear in their eyes.
I was getting worried about you, Falcon, with that big tablet after someone mentioned Temazepam. It's okay, I've worked it out now!