Oh Annie My fear of having a mammogram was based on a previous (probably grossly exaggerated in my head ) bad experience . I turned it into something massive, which it shouldn’t have been .
Suffering as you do is not the same . You have had some tragic events to deal with, enough to break anyone . I just feel sorry that you are unable to get out and no longer have your family around you for support . I do hope you can eventually take “baby steps” with your scooter, then who knows are your confidence grows...... 