The pain of being a widower.

Oh, so sorry.

That's a place we'll all reach sooner or later, all who are lucky to be in a good relationship anyway. Either we'll go or they will.

I think you'll be happier if you try to re-vamp your life. Take up a new interest, join some kind of group, the possibilities are endless. To have more in your life, you have to go after it though. Best wishes.

I’m so sorry for your loss. This is a hard road that no-one wants to be on and I wish I could tell you that it gets easier. I would encourage you to explore what is going on in your local community and find something that will bring you into regular contact with other people - a walking group or somewhere where you can pursue an interest. Volunteer if you’re able. Libraries are a good source of information about local activities if you have one near you.

Grief never does go away completely but eventually you will learn to walk more comfortably side by side with it.

I agree, Grey. The hole is still there after “only” 4 years, one just gets more used to the presence. I still get ambushed by grief at the most unexpected times by the silliest things, but the episodes are shorter and less frequent with time.
It sounds callous, but 2 years isn’t long. I hope you try to meet people and do stuff to keep you part of the human race rather than staying in.
I carry “it is better to have loved (and been loved) and lost than to have never loved” around with me. My past life would have been so sterile.

I'm sorry that you are feeling unhappy rowan1963. I second Greyduster post about activities that will bring regular contact with people. Life can be so very hard, but life is also very beautiful. I try to actively find something beautiful in each and every day and there's always something. I keep a journal of these things. At New Year I read the entire journal. Best wishes to you.

Rowan1963 My brother (77) is alone, since his wife died in May this year. She'd been in a care home for a couple of years (Alzheimer's). He's very lonely. His son died 2 years ago of Cancer. I suggested Men In Sheds to my brother, which he went to a few years ago. He now goes twice a week and enjoys the company and likes making things - bird houses, music boxes, etc. It's given him a purpose again.

Would something like that be of interest to you? There might be agroup in your area.

You need to go out and join something. I usually suggest U3A as there are so many groups there is bound to be something to interest you. Also how about a gym or exercise class? You are getting lots of suggestions. After two years you are over the worst. It is wonderful that you had such a happy marriage but now you need to make an effort to build a new life for yourself.

So sorry for your loss and for the grief and loneliness you are feeling. It must be so very hard for you.

If and when you can muster up the courage and energy- I'm another great fan of joining your local u3a. I have made some very good, local friends this way. There are interest groups you can join and periodic outings and activities you can dip in and out of as you choose.

Good luck 🍀

I feel really sad for you.

I watched my DM literally dwindled before my eyes when my DF died.

She missed him every day of her life until she died 6.5 years later.

We did our best to “jolly her along” and helped out all we could, DD2 was an absolute angel, we both worked full time but she visited more than I did as she and my DM developed a real affinity for each other.

I’d go in 3 times a week, she covered the other 4. An absolute trooper!

However, for you all I can say is loneliness is awful and I hope you do have some family and friends who can meet with you and take away some of your pain for short periods.

Dependent on your overall health and particular situation, can you join Amy clubs, do some online classes, discover a new hobby?

I really do wish you well and hope you can find some joy

Any clubs?

Am so sorry you feel like this 💐💐
You were truly blessed to have your wife for as long as you did, and must have so many happy memories.
But of course grief and loneliness are not good companions. Have you tried to get out and about - if your health permits that is?
There will be groups you can join but I appreciate it takes courage to do this alone. If there are community hubs or community cafes in your area that would be a good idea to start with. Go and have a cup of tea and strike up a conversation with staff or other customers, community cafes are different inasmuch as they are usually places where people do chat to each other but you don’t have to join anything. Yet. However there will be a notice board with details of local clubs. No pressure, just take a look.
Wishing you all the very best 💐💐

“I feel very empty nowadays and wish that I can overcome all of this and be happy again”

This resonates very much with me and I have friends and family around me daily rowan1963 to be as alone as you are must be very difficult indeed. I’m so sorry.

I can only hope that perhaps with time you will find that something will engage your mind and help to fill the empty feelings you’re experiencing now.

My experience is that I have to push myself to engage with others and at least try to pretend that I’m coping. It’s very difficult to do that but I’m trying so hard.

It's hard I was a widowed after 47 yrs the last 5 nursing my wife, family and friends rallied round and I started socializing again fairly quickly - I didn't really have a choice. I was lucky my confidence returned gradually, there were several single ladies in the social circle, after a while I plucked up courage (really) to ask out.

You can never replace your loved one but you can move on and have a good life, several of my friend have also lost wives they get out and about, local pub, sports club, hobbies, volunteering. It doesn't matter how old you are, there are lots of others in the same position, and a surprising number of support groups too but you have to break the ice yourself.

In my experience (widowed 9 years ago next month) you don’t overcome bereavement but learn to live with it.
Like losing a limb, you learn to limp along in this very altered state.
Loneliness and the ramifications of loss are however something you either address or turn your face to the wall.
You don’t need to seek out a social life but it helps not to cut yourself off from friends, neighbours or family or you risk wallowing and drowning in your grief.
Many things can be done alone- reading the paper in the library or a coffee shop, daytime cinema, a trip out to somewhere of interest, maybe a gallery or museum or a walk somewhere scenic. If you have an interest or have had in the past, think of reviving that.
Or try something like U3A. Just exchanging the time of day, a smile and a smile and a Hello can start to lift your spirits
I would guess your wife would not have wanted you to be sad but you do have to zhuzh yourself up sometimes .
From my experience there is no other way forward and forwards is the only way to go.