Black Dogs 29

Unexpected sun here too! The forecast says we are having Storm Dave and heavy rain. But better sleep again, took my time getting going (I have to do this eye thing twice a day to heat eyelids and drain the goo, it’s tedious but worth it) and found the gym just right, usual people, not busy.
Home bargains just now for some plants (v cheap, limited choice, but v good condition)
And wilting over a Costa.

I didn’t say, but tricky QuakerD has told male Quaker G about MrA. G is one of the key people but not in the know, but indications were he’d guessed some.
It was nagging away at me, don’t trust D to give full picture at all, so wrote to G as ‘follow up’ and feel more peace of mind since.

It’s playing it by ear, isn’t it? Know when to act and when to leave, but it feels like a moving on thing.

I’m glad it’s not your writing hand Scaredycat. That would have been so restrictive. Are you doing wiggly finger things as it gets better? I actually pretend to be playing the piano on the car wheel or the table or arm chair?

I’m sure it looks major weird at the gym when I add it to an ordinary stretch.

Did you see family today and how is Sis doing now?

Hi all
Wyllow- Friday turned out to be a good one after all. I think you have these nice days and somehow can’t believe you’re allowed to have another one the next day- like it’s too good to be true. Try to allow yourself to have happy times - you deserve them.
An adventure awaits you next Friday- a good idea to have that bolt hole if you get tired.
No it’s not my writing hand thank goodness. It’s much better today.
Thank you for starting our new thread- you’re a star.
Doodle- yes Good Friday has always had that emotional feeling- glad you had a lovely service. Hope you are doing something nice today.
SweetPeaSue- funerals always awaken many conflicting feelings . They are an end and a beginning - hope your DiL is not finding it too hard.These first weeks without her Mum are so difficult.
Never regret your posts - true feelings negative or positive come from the heart - and yours is a big one..
HVDY- The evening with your brother went very well by the sound of it. Your DH sounds very good natured and it can’t have been easy for him initially.
Yes it is a weird thing with my hand but Dr Google said it can happen. Once in 83 years isn’t bad😀
So easy to make a mistake with appointments - we all hve too many!!
Nadateturbe,EllieAnne - thinking of you both and sending love to allx

Ironically, the day turned out sunny, and the men could have finished later, but I had a lovely active day, the Botanical Gardens were just fab - a light wind, magnolia tress waving, a carpet of petals, buds opening, after the gym….and I well needed a sleep.

MrA and aftereffects will leave me until its ready, and of course he is “coming back”:
I can just do my best to focus on other things, and certainly get past the return, and this Tuesday and the Eye consultant before I feel I can really start properly moving on

But I am driving up to my family for two days next Friday. An adventure - haven’t been up since October. It will push me energy wise, but I am staying in a nearby guest house that looks really homely and nice lady there who will let me have afternoon naps and so on.

I’m glad that your hand is getting a little better, but really hope its back to best soon, Scaredycat, its very limiting. Is it your writing hand or not?

I thought Good Friday might be like that for you, Doodle. Very understandable feelings: it sounded like, again, your church is a really Good Place.

I knew you’d understand, Sweetpeasue re anger and how to deal with its triggers - starting with what happened with the Doc who messed you up as well as not being heard for DH - prolonged stress and fear for you.

I recall yesterday was a good day and wonder of you have what I get at times for some weird reason - one has a pretty good day, things look better - then the wretched day afterwards - its a downer.

The only reason I have fathomed is that it’s hard to trust good things when they happen, there is some kind of reaction? One is sure it cant really be for real, bad times will recur, etc etc.

HVDY your DH was a star tonight - the roast, and the chat - well done him, given it initially went against the grain. 3 hours is quite a long time in the circs - well done you both - whatever drove your brother, it was positive tonight.

thinking of absent friends.