Anxiety

Poor you, aella. You mention family - do they live nearby? Do they visit? Do you have neighbours? Sorry you have a painful back - that’s quite wearing, isn’t it? Do you see the doctor re your back at all? I’m asking a lot of questions, aren’t I, ha ha. Keep posting on GN - there are some kind and helpful folks - and you’ll see you’re not alone.

Take heart, it is incredibly common and there is help out there.

Does your surgery have a room set by for those who need to see a nurse regarding various issues ? Like a walk-in centre.

Thank you for your messages of support. I know I should go to the doctor but I have a fear of them. I deep and intensive fear. I think that my husband knows I'm not feeling good when I reach for the Rescue Remedy spray

You have made a start by talking to us on here, well done. I am sure we will all give you the same advice, talk to your doctor. If that is too hard start by calling 111, the NHS help line, they should be able to give you some good advice. Just take it one step at a time as you have probably taken a long time to get to this state. You can do it, one baby step at a time.

Aella, Sorry you are suffering in this way. You could try requesting a telephone appointment with your doctor to discuss your condition. There are courses that might help you. Don't suffer alone.
Good luck.

aella do you live on your own? I think you need to talk to a doctor about your anxieties as it is obviously affecting your quality of life.

What a bummer aella. Having suffered from anxiety and depression since I was a child, I know where you're coming from! I'm in Canada so I'm not sure what's available in your country, but there must be a helpline you can call to start with? I think they are going to say get to your doctor asap. You don't have to deal with this alone!
Virtual Hugs to you.