Hi, just reading your post and your experience with your past midwives. This reminded me of the midwife I had when I gave birth to my only child. She was an agency midwife who by the way, had 3 children of her own, I was on the GP suite, the floor below the labour ward and you had your own room and bathroom, cut a long story short I was 6cm dilated when I arrived at 9pm and as it progressed she periodically examined and every time she kept saying she was unsure how dilated I was! Later on she had to break my waters and of course I didn't know that you only start pushing when you get that urge to, and it seemed, neither did she!! I did take a long time as my son had a large head, but looking back she should have performed an episotomy, so.....I ende up with a 3inch vertical tear. She looked mortified!! Had it stitched but oh, the pain it caused, stitches were supposed to be dissolvable, but no, I'm not squeamish but I couldn't let the nurse near me to have a look. In the end it was a few more weeks and I was phoning round to have them taken out, but to no avail, very distressed by this time. I walked round the corner where I lived to the Memorial hospital and amazingly a doctor whipped the last 2 out there and then, I could have kissed him! I ended up with PD and I'm certain it's because of her lack of training affected those first precious weeks of motherhood so I really sympathise with you!! Sorry for the length of the post....