Having a bad day.

So sorry to hear about your daughter, Thorntree. Be brave !!

Thank you, that’s very kind to think of me. I don’t want to intrude on Merlots thread though, we all have sad events in our lives, it’s the price we pay for love I suppose.

We've not 'spoken' before, Merlot, I'm quite new to GN, but needed to add my heartfelt wish for some comfort in this dreadful, shocking time. Clearly you are much loved on GN and all your virtual friends are here, surrounding you with love, please accept a virtual hug from a stranger, and know that you and your family are uppermost in my thoughts

Just, so very very sorry.

There are grans on here who have been in your heartbreaking situation. The pain is almost impossible to bear. Words don't really help, other than let you know that you and your daughter and the family are in all our thoughts. Keep your girl close and surround her with your love. One day at a time.

So very sorry.

Merlot there is nothing any of us can say to ease the pain and suffering that you are going through. But we are all thinking of you and feel so sad that this has happened to your lovely girl.

Merlot how desperately sad. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. ?

How are you Merlot? Thinking of you xx

Oh Merlot, I keep typing words in and deleting them as no words will do.

I wish I could give you and Mr Merlot proper big hugs and bring nourishing casseroles round. Not just virtual ones. XX.

Just got back from the hospital. Taking each day as they come is all we can do. Yesterday was another despairing one as we were told her liver is not functioning well enough to have a stent fitted to widen the bile duct. They are going to try and insert another drain instead. Tomorrow they are hoping to do a gastroscopy which will enable a procedure to block a nerve in her back which is causing her pain. The jaundice is still evident and now she is starting to itch.

On top of all that the palliative care doctor explained very gently that she doesn't have very long. We knew it was coming but didn't want to hear it! They then left us alone for an hour and we had a very emotional talk with lots of tears and hugs but no anger. Acceptance is hard but there is no alternative.

Today she was more cheerful but very tired. We await the results of yet another scan tomorrow.

A bit of good news is that they want her to come home for Easter weekend and are working towards that. A district nurse will visit every day to load the pain driver pump and do any other checks. We all desperately want her home but I'm a little scared of the responsibility. Not telling anyone though.

This afternoon she had the hard task of discussing her sad prognosis with the boys. Her ex husband, their father, was there to support them. Despite their acrimonious divorce he has stepped up to the mark and will be there to advise them when the time comes as although she doesn't own any property, she has some good investments.

I won't visit tomorrow if they go ahead with the gastroscopy as she will be too tired and in any case I have to prepare for the long weekend as she will have visitors and some will be driving a long way but it will be easier if she's home and much nicer for her. It will be a sad and emotional time though.

Thank you all for continuing to think of us.

Oh merlot. Big, big hug

Oh Merlot how brave you are all being. I hope you have a memorable weekend which goes easier than you are expecting.
You are in our thoughts all the time and hugs

So hard for you all.

Merlotgran, I too find it difficult to use words to express my feelings for you and your lovely family. I am so glad there is so much love surrounding your daughter and that you continue to find the strength to support her and her sons. I hope you too are being supported. It just reminds us all that the only thing that really matters is love, thank you and bless you.

I can't imagine anything sadder. My heart goes out to you.

merlot I can’t add anything to what’s been said but I’m thinking of you and your lovely girl this evening.

merlot nothing I can say really. I hope your DD gets home for the weekend. I hope your ex SIL is looking after your DGS well. It must be so hard for you all. All of you will be in my prayers .

Desperately sad news. Life can be so brutal. I can only add that you are in my thoughts and I hope your dear daughter can be made as comfortable and peaceful as possible.

Even more in my thoughts for the coming weekend when your darling girl is hopefully home amongst her loving family. Hugs and love for you Merlot

So sorry you are going through this Merlot . Thoughts and prayers are with you all

Really sorry to hear this Merlot. I lost my son to cancer many years ago my heart bleeds for you it is so hard to see your child suffer . I understand a little of what you are going through but nobody truly understands except you. I send you my prayers and please feel free to pm me if you think it will help at all

Continuing to think of you and your daughter Merlot, and will continue to do so during the coming days. Having her home will truly be something to cherish. .

Please take every opportunity to speak to the district nurse. She’ll have all your concerns covered.

Just very sincere thoughts for you all and prayers for your dear daughter.