Despite going back through 30 pages of the kitchen I haven't located that particular post number. But I gather from others that your husband is ill in hospital. I do hope he is getting all the help he needs, and that you are getting support too. Coing home at night on your own is not nice, I know. I managed to read all your posts throughout the 30 pages on the Kitchen and each one is so kind, always mentioning, and where necessary comforting, other people. You sound such a lovely, kind lady. Please keep in touch on here and let us know how things are. That's what The Kitchen is for, I think. Hope the hospital ward feels a bit cooler today. Ask for a fan ! ! I "nicked" one from somewhere else in the hospital so that my husband could have a bit of respite from the heat during his last stay.