No Christmas spirit.

The last thing I want to do is to spoil any jollification for the millions and the many on here who just love Christmas. All good wishes to you and I really envy you , I wish it was me . But after a lifetime of disappointment, relieved only for the few years when my children were small and full of anticipation Christmas has not been a good time for me. I have enthused for the sake of others but it just hasn't done it for me. Am I on my own?