Thank you
Up until This last week I have felt despondent. The warmth show me has been very helpful. It is amazing what a few kind words can do when you think you are in a very dark place. As from our last contact, the only way must be up. I just hope that somehow I reach the top of this very deep hole by the time I may be found again.
I have some lovely work colleagues who I could not have survived this long without. The loss of a grandchild is so very hard to understand and I feel humbled by the generosity given to me.
I managed to get another few lines of my final letter written today. I found a poem which I have slightly changed to include her adopting mums name. I have not had letter box officially confirmed. There is a very very remote chance of face to face once a year depending on what they decide after the criminal case is heard. Until then I don't want to get my hopes up.
Hopefully in time to come I can help others as I have been helped. I am not sure where the last 18'years have gone, as my youngest is 18 at the end of the month, I can only hope the next 18 go as fast. Just have to stay strong to survive to 70! Mum is always so fond of saying only the good die young. Cheerful should she is, that's why she reckons she will make it to a 100! If she does she too may still see her great grand child again! Something to live for she says! Love my Mum xx
