Mental Illness

I just want to say how sorry I am that you are feeling like this.
You are not a failure, you are dealing with a difficult situation to the best of your ability.
My S suffers from anxiety and depression so although I can't understand totally I do know how he is when he is really down.
He cares about nothing or anyone.
I hope you get some understanding from the MH team and your husband and that you get some lightening of your mood soon.

Sorry you are having such a struggle. Until people have had MH issues themselves it is hard to take on board just how debilitating they can be.

Hopefully your MH team will be able to help. Does your OH get involved in your appointments at all?

No you are not a failure. Anxiety and depression are things we can all suffer from. Life knocks us back sometimes. Tiredness in general is a knock on effect from depression. Hopefully the fact that you are having secondary care means you are getting some treatment.
Unless you have suffered from depression yourself it is difficult to understand but there are many of us who know how debilitating it can be. Don’t give up hope. Pursue the best treatment you can get and I hope you feel a lifting of your spirits soon.

Never look on yourself as a failure just getting though a day is a success Does your bipolar leave you more down than up ?
I know this will sound banal but exercise and fresh air really are so helpful Could you join a walking group not a ramblers but here we have a mental health ‘walk and chat’ couple of hours a week and people really do seem to get uplifted by it There are such a lot now being considered good for mental health from simple gym work to park runs meeting with others who do understand is so helpful
Good luck I hope you can find something to get involved in and help you have something to look forward to