Holiday alone ?

Medication will help you but to get out of this hole, you need professional help

After antidepressants have kicked in, why not start with a weekend, turn off your cell and decide your next destination?

I've travelled alone a lot. I travel independently, so not a package, as that's what I enjoy. However, I have always found that I can find people to talk to or spend time with should I want to.

But I have friends who don't enjoy that sort of travelling, and so go on organised trips relating to an interest they have, so that might be an option.

Gransnet have some information and suggestions for solo travel here www.gransnet.com/life-and-style/travel/travelling-alone

Think I would wait for a couple of weeks till your medication for depression kicks in...By that time you should start to feel less anxious and more positive about making a decision bout going on a break by yourself.....Think going on a bus holiday with other people would be your best.

Thank you canadiangran

Perhaps just a day out or an overnight stay on your own might do you good. That way you could get away mentally, but not feel guilty about an extended stay and leaving DH on his own.

A day to the city for a matinee performance, a visit or a garden or museum and a nice lunch out. You'll come home refreshed mentally (hopefully). Organize his physical care in advance, but he needs to know he should help himself as well.

Thank you silver lining

Coach trips or tours are usually friendly. Or a cruise if you feel brave enough ( covid), or have you a friend/family you can stay or go away with? You clearly need a break.
I dont know your circumstances, but feel a bit for anyone recovering from hip surgery. I am 6 weeks post op and grateful my dh is around to help.
Hope the medication helps and you can sort out a break.