I watched that too Smileless, wasn't going to, but they did put the record straight. I always thought she had the most beautiful smile and caring nature, much had been made of her negative traits, these were far outweighed the good she did. So glad her boys love her so much and still feel that love, she made them what they are today. It made me cry, thinking of that day they were made to act like grown ups and follow her coffin, for all they have in life, nothing makes up to those men for that loss of their loving mother. I do think your son must think of all those years when you were close, he has for some reason tried to blank it out, but it will catch up with him. You never forget those that realy love you. The older you get the more you realise that. What I do know for sure, is that if you hurt someone who loves you unconditionally and dont put it right, you will never find peace.