Drum roll please

Lottie has cancer. I have two choices

1. They x ray to see if it's spread, if not they operate and remove all mamory glands on the one side but doesn't mean it will not spread then.

2. I wait and decide when she loses a good quality of life then let her go.

Oh, Annie, hopefully it's just a reaction which should settle. You've been under so much stress that it's bound to reflect in your health. Concentrate on that puppy of yours, she's your best medicine.

Have you heard back from the vet yet? If not, ring again. She must be free now..... it's lunch time!

Just had phone call from doctor, she is unsure if I have a reaction to antibiotics or blood poisoning , that cheered me up - not

True, I need to control my negative thoughts , sorry

Not necessarily
Fingers and toes crossed

Just phoned the vet to ask if Lottie's results are back, all they would say was - the vet who saw her last week will phone you when she is free, this can only mean the test wasn't clear , I am so fearful

I love the film and the book.

I'm not sure Wilma, it was very many years ago when we were first married and he told the tale for years afterwards about how I dragged him off to see this film!

Years ago I persuaded my parents to go to the cinema with me to see South Pacific, which I had seen in 'Todd-AO' at Wolverhampton.
Mum enjoyed it very much but Dad grumbled about it being a load of old rubbish then fell asleep.

Gone with the Wind is definitely a classic. Love it. I persuaded my DH to see the Sound of Music with me before we were married. He snorted and pretend snored and was so embarrassing the wedding was very nearly called off. He’s better trained now, but I’m more careful about what I suggest we see.

Granddaughter1 who is studying English at university enjoys it too, she said Scarlet was a feminist ?

Annie what a lovely memory! Gone with the Wind might seem OTT to some people, but that last line is a classic and never a truer word was spoken.

And Jalima I love your strategy! Did he enjoy the film?

How lovely!

I wanted to see the re-working of Gone With the Wind and knew DH wouldn't go (this was years ago) so I told him it was a war film.
Well, it is set in the Civil War isn't it.

Oh Annie I’m glad you’re feeling even a little bit better. Listen to all that Wilma says - she’s talking good sense.
Night night, God bless.

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Wilma, you will now think me barking, my darling daughter for my birthday 2016 walked two miles to a sale of an auctioneer, Saw a three foot x five foot framed cinema poster of Gone With The Wind, bid for it, won the bid then carried it the two miles and a further mile to my home , my birthday present. We use to watch the film and at the end would both chip in with Tomorrow is another day .

I feel so emotional now yet happy remembering that day , thank you x

Annie you should practice being kinder to yourself. If someone close to you told you all that's happening in their life and it's mainly hard stuff, you wouldn't say to them some of the things you are saying about yourself. It's not selfish to stop being hard on yourself, it's the healthiest way to live. Carry on taking one day at a time and remember what Scarlet O'Hara said. "Tomorrow is another day."

Crafting, I have no problem getting off to sleep, light out radio off at midnight, come around 3.00am, woken with build up of wind,and if I eat chicken indigestion too, I never have heartburn thankfully, so warm in bed and the dogs asleep it's too cold to go into the living room . I make a mug tea, the warmth is comforting and helps, then two rennies and back to sleep by about 4.30. I don't change my diet, putting on that stone is on hold . Have recently enjoyed yoghurt my tummy hasn't , wish I knew what causes it, dietician said to up the Ensure and it's tempting just to drink Ensure , seems every time I get positive and make a plan something crops up and sets me back, could be self pity? The firm closes for two weeks on Friday so things will be even more quiet. I was use to being busy. Sorry to moan . I seem to have lost the ability to make decisions and have little self confidence , must get myself together . No results for Lottie back today,

Annie hope you can get some sleep.

Oh annie your poor arm. Have you tried sleeping sitting up as cherrytree suggested? If I find it difficult to sleep sometimes I sit wrapped up in a chair and find I drop off a bit easier. Hope you sleep tonight x

Ahh that's all done then. I'm on antibiotics too Anniebach . Every bloomin year haha. Hope your arm feels better and vets news good.

Done it, took hour and half , said all I wanted to say, it is now on record, the truth is anyway. I can do no more for my girl.

The infected arm is the result of this idiot playing with Phoebe who got too playful and scrammed my arm, I had run out of anti septic cream so just stuck a plaster on it. Not sensible. Hate antibiotics they make me sick and light headed, hay ho. No word from vet yet.

Thank you all x

Could you bear to write some notes down to get your thoughts in order?
Too often we think of something we should have mentioned afterwards.

Oh Annie another hurdle for you jump.
Can you sleep in the chair during the day?
I know it's not ideal but any sleep is better than none.
And being upright should help your reflux.

Hopefully it will be an officer from the bereavement team who will take your statement they should be able to guide you through it.

If you can have something planned for straight after they leave.
or come on GN.
Better than going over and over again in your head.

x

Oh dear, is it cellulitis? I have had that (and again recently). The antibiotics are vital and it could be that you need more than one week's worth to get rid of it.

Wishing you all the best and hope the antibiotics kick in quickly.

Take cover, another moan, doctor came out to see me at eleven last night, have a badly infected arm, my left naturally as I am left handed . Given anti biotics, just read not to be taken with antacids, so sod the reflux.

Please, please tolerate my moaning a bit longer x