I really feel for you - it must be awful. But how old are you, and how old are the children, if I may ask? It might be better for the children to be in foster care with younger families, but with close and regular contact with you. I'm only 62 and OH 67 - but I am not sure we could take full-time care of 3 young children and give them all the energy and attention they deserve.
Do you get emotionally attached to the plants in your garden ?
Only 50% of middle age adult manage more than 1 brisk 10 min walk a month.


