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Heading off soon to get dgs from nursery and stay till ds gets in from work. No fog today thank goodness. Horrible atmosphere in house. Dh annoyed I think. He’s having a lot of pain I think coming from hip.
I told him it wouldn’t get better on its own and he grumpily said they won’t do anything as it’s not bad enough.but obviously conditions will deteriorate.I think the last time he went to see about it was before Covid.
Then I mentioned dinlaw working late tonight and he asked where she works!!!! I told him (she’s worked there for years) that if he wants to know anything he has to ask people and he didn’t like it. But he doesn’t show an interest so I don’t bother telling him.
Maybe I’m mean but he’s an adult and should be able to do things without being told. If I hadn’t gone on about hearing he wouldn’t have got the wax seen too.
Rant over.

Hi all
SweetPeaSue- your detailed explanation to Doodle re your DH problems really explained what has been; happening to him- poor man. The sooner those dots are joined up the better.
More delays for the blood test- it’s so bad isn’t it.
My DH had the yearly blood test today for his annual check up for his thyroid cancer. He hasn’t physically had a FTF since before Covid! How you can check that over the phone remains a mystery!!!
I,m sorry your DiL Mum has had to go to Hospital. I know you like her and hope she’s soon feeling better. Your DiL will be so glad of your kindness and help while worried about her Mum.
Doodle- it must have felt good to have a walk even for a short while. Fresh air always helps doesn’t it. Hope the sore throat has calmed down now.
This will be the first Xmas my DGD1 has hosted . Her husband loves to cook as it is so removed from his job. It will be a very noisy day- think I,ll leave my hearing aids at home😀
I was married at 18 so started Christmas cooking very early- now my DD has inherited that job although we have been out a few times too.
Wyllow- sorry your oooompf has taken a dive hopefully today you,ll feel a bit more energetic both in mind and body.
The young carer will be strange for you but may turn out to be a breath of fresh air.Hopefully she’s full of enthusiasm - although I can see that might be tiring too!!
Hope today hasn’t taken it out of you too much.
EllieAnne- Oh dear at least you,ve got that off your chest!!
Your DH needs to see his GP about his hip or it,ll never be resolved. He does sound like he gets no pleasure from life or takes much interest in anything. Has retirement been difficult for him.
You,re not mean just frustrated at the lack of meaningful contact with your husband.
Glad you haven’t been troubled by the fog today.
Nadateturbe - how are you? I hope life is treating you more kindly and you have been able to have some more comfortable days.
Thinking of all who come here or just read and our regulars who have not visited for a whilexxx

EllieAnne You've had an explosive morning with DH. Hope the dust has settled a bit and the atmosphere is less tense. I can understand your frustration. I'm afraid waiting lists are so long your DH needs to get on board the system as soon as he can. My DH has had 2 hip replacements and the pain can be pretty bad beforehand. We have the fog here today -pea-souper.
Scaredycat You married young ,like myself. I think lots of us did years ago. Oh dear - things are bad when your DH hasn't had those annual checks. It's wearying trying to get these things sorted isn't it. I smiled about you leaving hearing aids at home when meeting up with family at Christmas.😅
Thankyou , my son's MIL comes out of hospital tomorrow. She will be glad to be home.
Wyllow Hoping today has been a little better both in tum and mood. Don't be afraid to take the movicol it works over a few days, ideally. I guessed new carer would probably be quite young. I found that with the leader of the 8week MH group thing. Think she was about 19.
I don't think it's 'ageist' wanting more experience in a 'worker' -it's just better, ideally , if you're on the same wavelength too which is more likely if the person is older. Sorry, I could go on about that but I won't. I feel so sorry that your daily hours are so long and sad. Keep on Wyllow - one day it will be different.
HVDY Hoping today has been more restful for you. We've had Fluffball today and are having her tomorrow. She's been good -apart from in Costa when she was wimpering the whole time for titbits-so embarrassing but we didn't give in. Plenty of nice cuddles later though.
Doodle Glad to hear your cough is getting better. I wish your broken heart could ease too . Have you been busy again today? Make sure you rest too. Your exactly right about dots needing to be joined for my DH. Grrr. He had message from surgery today that a Vascular Dr had seen GPs request for advice about BP and he's been told to treat right arm ( the high BP one). Thing is when we saw how GP letter to Vascular he'd not mentioned anything about his continual pain in left arm ,due to Vascular Insufficiency. Ah well. We'd even handed in a copy of hand surgeon's letter saying this to the surgery.
Anyway GP wants another weeks BP readings of right arm then I guess he'll up BP meds.
Big hugs for you and do rest.

Thinking of all and hoping your day hasn't been too bad. Love to all not mentioned or reading.

Willow i Hope the new carer works out ok. Perhaps you just need to get to know one another a bit. Doesn’t sound as though the Movicol is helping you i Hope you feel more comfortable soon.
Ellie Anne sorry things are so bad at home for you. You’re right your DH does need to see a Gp. If his hip is causing him a lot of pain it needs to be sorted. Some men are very anti doctors. Fortunately my DH wasn’t.
Have a nice time with your DGs and get home safely.
Scaredycat I’m sure you’ll have a lovely day with all the family. Nice that your GD husband cooks too that should help.
I went for another walk today. Longer than yesterday. Went to visit the tree we had planted for DH and had a walk round the park. You were married young. I got married at 20 but Christmas was always catered for by my mum or DH’s mum for quite a few years, I’m not the worlds best cook.
Sweetpeasue pleased to hear your son’s MIL is coming home.
Cuddles with fluff all sound lovely. You say such lovely things to me. Yes cough is definitely better but two days at home on my own haven’t dont much for my state of mind. I’m having dinner with family tomorrow night so hoping I cheer up by then.
Good that there has been a response from the vascular surgeon and that your DH’s BP is to be treated. Shame he didn’t mention the pain in his other arm. Why doesn’t anyone look at the whole picture. It must be so frustrating for you.
Take care all

I’m sorry the atmosphere is so horrid, EllieAnne. It’s clear that getting him to the GP won’t be easy.
You did well with the wax. I hope you enjoyed time with DGS.

How can bloods be done without a F2F, Scaredycat? It’s nice you’ll be cooked for on Christmas Day….you’ve done your bit after all these years!

I read you post about DH yesterday Sweetpeasue you explained it very well….bad delays -I’m so sorry. Grrrr indeed.

I’m glad that your sons MiL will be home. Yes, I do have reservations about the new carer, just have to see how it goes. I hope you’ve enjoyed Fluffball.

I’m glad you got out for a walk Doodle although its been dull days. Special hug for you as you walked round the tree.

I had my MH worker very early - walked a bit in the park, and she is wanting me to DO more as it’s *good for me”. Sigh. I do like her tho, she’s the only one who went through the break up with EX with me. Then hairdresser came round so a tiring day.

Love to BD’s present (and past) and see you all in here soon xx

Dgs was very good for me and I managed to get him back on the bus ok. Very grumpy glasgow bus driver though.
But three days of horrible journeys in the fog have stressed me out.
Got another busy day with dentist this morning and helping make up Christmas bags for our old folks
Group this afternoon
Visiting friend tonight.
I feel like little donkey - got to keep on plodding onwards!
Wyllow I hope you re pleased with your hair.
Well done
Hope everyone has a peaceful day.

SweetpeaSue* Thanks for the detailed explanation about your husband. Why can't these consultants, GPs, etc., communicate with each other? There should be a way for them to look at each other's notes (hospital online records aren't linked with GP ones, which is daft). Hope your DH gets his BP treated correctly soon. Glad your son's MIL is going home. How nice of you to look after Fluffball. She sounds a sweet dog. The tumble dryer caught fire whilst we were watching tv - it made a loud noise and I smelled smoke. The parts will be here tomorrow, so he'll fix it then.

Doodle Glad you're starting to feel better. You've been doing a lot recently. Hope you have a lovely meal with your family later.

EllieAnne You've been very busy. Your husband needs to see someone about his hip. Some men can be stubborn - my husband and sons are all like it. You've got a full-on day again today. Make a bit of time for a rest, if you can.

ScaredyCat Having a "check-up" over the 'phone is strange. Hope your husband's results stay ok. My husband had a blood test last week about his parathyroid. It seems to be ok although the hospital are going to monitor him (all said in a letter). I left home at 20 but have never cooked a Christmas dinner - DH did it until 2 years ago (when we finally were without one son or the other here) and now we have a curry instead!

Wyllow3 I can understand you wanting an older carer, one with hopefully more experience. This new, young one will only be with you over Christmas, though, so at least if she's friendly and (not too) talkative, you'll soon have your regular lady back.

Took LittleGirl to a playgroup yesterday. There was a Santa Claus there and she enjoyed herself. Later, I took her to the day centre so that I could hand out some cards. They all made a fuss of her, and she was very entertaining . She's a very confident child, gets involved with things straight away. Going to visit my SIL in the care home today, will meet her sister there. Hope ALL BDers manage to have a decent day x

Hi all
SweetPeaSue- glad to hear DS s MiL will be home today. Hope she stays well enough to enjoy Christmas.
Fluffball must really enjoy he4 days wit( you- she was trying it on in Costas wasn’t she.
Let’s hope that after another week of BP readings that DH starts getting some proper attention he is so in need of.
Doodle- It’s lovely you have your tree to visit. It will grow and flourish and be a continual living reminder of your DH.
Our Woodland Trust has many such trees and although the plaques on them are for people we don’t know it means the brief moment anyone stops to read them those who,ve gone are remembered for a while. I,m older than DH and I hope he will put one there for me one day.
Glad your cough has improved- you had no choice but to stay in but it must have been difficult for you. So tonight you have a nice dinner with your family. Hope you enjoy the company and of course the food.
Wyllow- DH bloods are taken at the hospital a month before the annual check up with the consultant. Since before Covid DH has not had a FTF consultant appt - just phone. Don’t know how you can feel someone’s neck over the phone !!!
Glad you got out to the park- I think you are very aware that ‘doing more’ would be good for you but it’s so much easier said than done . Your carer must know you very well now though especially as she was present at that traumatic time. Maybe in the New Year she would help you to gradually widen your horizons
Good that you,ve kept the hairdresser - that must help you feel less frazzled. That was a tiring but also a productive day- good for you.
EllieAnne- you,re busy at the moment but it is better than being bored or lonely. Ah comparing yourself to Little Donkey is understandable- but don’t forget everyone loves a donkey.
Make sure you have a rest when you can though.
HVDY- you are so right . How on earth can a consultant make any sensible comments from a phone call. They always used to feel all around his neck and throat. When he had his thyroid gland removed(2 Ops) an unfortunate consequence was that all his 4 parathyroid glands were destroyed. He takes quite a few meds daily.
Little Girl is certainly a character- they must hve loved her at. Day Centre. What a great gift of confidence you have all helped her achieve.
Hope SiL is pleased to see you and her sister. I have noticed with my best friend that as her Alzheimer’s progresses her emotions seem to be dulled more and in a strange way it seems to help her be less distressed.

Been shopping this morning to get a few more Xmas goodies at Mand S. they certainly know how to do Christmas. This afternoon we,ve had a walk. It’s so cold and dull. I was happy to get back in but glad of the fresh air.
I,m wondering how some of our friends who have been absent lately are getting on. Sending love to all

Doodle I think planting that tree is so special. It will always be there ,right near the river you both had so many walks by. A lovely idea.We passed a seat with a memorial plaque on it dedicated to a loved one ,yesterday- it was by a small river. I read the lady's name and thought of her passing that spot and how she enjoyed it's beauty. Hope you enjoy your meal and the company today after your enforced rest indoors. Thankyou, too ,and all here, for caring.
Wyllow Ah , that 'good for you' phrase always sounds punishing doesn't it. Like the low fat,no sugar, no taste meals in a supermarket range. She knows you well though so she may have a point though it's going to be scary and will seem a huge effort .Just an extra tiny step forward. We so want you to get well.
Thanks , Fluffball here today too. She ran off with a sock again and wouldn't let go , wanting us to chase her around.
EllieAnne You sound so very busy and you are helping so many people. Shame about the grumpy bus driver. Hope you got in OK at the dentist this morning.Ive still got to get mine sorted out.
HVDY Hope the parts for the tumble dryer arrived today. Its great that your DH knows how to fix it. Good thing it alerted you by making the noise and you could smell the smoke. You understand so well about hospitals- so frustrating that notes aren't there for consultants to see but even when they are I don't think they've time to read them properly.
I'm glad Littlegirl is confident - I'm sure that's in at to do with you helping her socialise with others at playgroups and you spending time with her. Glad she liked Santa Claus too -not all children like to meet him in person!
Scaredycat I'm sorry your DH isn't getting the F2F check-ups he needs to have. I despair at the situation now in hospitals . How has it got to this stage when so many are left waiting for treatment too , like your neice. Has she heard any more about her op date? I really hope your DH is OK and he's coping with the medication.
Cold and rainy here today. What is it with the gloomy weather lately?

Took Fluffball for a little walk today and she was all messy when we returned home and needed a good towelling down.
I did a bit of sewing up knitted doll I'm making. I've watched several U-Tube on Mattress Stitch but it's going to take some practice I think.
Not too bad a day painwise which is good. Just can't get into Christmas .

Love to all and wishing everyone here and not mentioned a peaceful night. X

ScaredyCat It must be sad for you to see your friend like that. Once the dementia sufferer has lost their awareness, they often settle down into a childlike state but are usually more relaxed. My SIL recognises me, but has no idea of where I live, where she lives or how long she's been there. She was ok today, we chatted about our respective childhood Christmases. She had been number 8 of 12 children (only 2 siblings are alive and in this country). I visited my brother for 2 hours. He was very depressed (as usual) but doesn't want to go anywhere or join anything. He's not sending any Xmas cards (hasn't done do for a few years).

SweetpeaSue Fluffball sounds such a character. One of DH's socks was the first thing Jaffa ever played with. I can't get into Christmas, either (and the new tree is still in the box). The tumble dryer parts came today, so DH mended it (after 2 hours of swearing and banging around). Glad your pain hasn't been bad today.

Hope ALL BDers have a restful night x

Evening all just a quick visit as I’ve just got back from dinner with DS1 and family. It was really nice but now I’m full and tired. My eyes are tired and I’m going to rest now so proper catch up tomorrow. Take care all.

This weather is horrible isnt it ElllieAnne. Well done you little donkey plodding on x

Wondered what you got up to yesterday, HVDY LittleGirl does you credit with her confidence including going to the day centre with you. I’m sure you taking her to lots of things has helped.
I hope you found your SiL as well as might be expected. Must b difficult to visit your brother, well done for going.

Hi Scardeycat thanks for the bloods explanation. Your DH does need lots of meds. I’m glad your bf’s less distressed. Going by the M and S ads the Christmas/treat food is the best.

Glad you got out with Fluffball Sweetpeasue and got on with sewing up. I remember blanket stitch! Glad it was a lesser pain day.

Have a good rest Doodle, glad you saw family and had dinner.

A grim dressing gown day today. Can't be kind to me. Got through it

Love to all BD’s

Wyllow Oh Wyllow -I'm sorry for your really grim day yesterday. Hope today's been better for you. I wish I could make you better. Why can't you be kind to yourself - you've done nothing wrong? I agree with Scaredycat, that it's easier said than done about trying to move forward by 'doing' more. It must be very scary and I'm guessing part of you is wanting to punish yourself for feeling worthless. ( Please don't see my words as trying to analyse- just trying to help). Hate to think of you feeling so alone. You are such an eloquent lady with sharp intelligence and a good person. You have been wounded terribly by your ex. You know we all care here. I wonder if making some positive statements to yourself every day will help. As I write I'm very aware that 'I need talk!'
Oh isn't it funny that the stitches relate to beds. There is actually a mattress stitch but I'd forgotten about blanket stitch.
Sending love and a big hug💐
Doodle Hope your day has been OK. It was so good gor you to have family time yesterday. You must be so thankful for such loving sons. We carry on for others sometimes don't we, even if we don't want to for ourselves.
Scaredycat Hope your day has been good. Sorry about your friend with Alzhiemers- think it must be true about some people with Alzhiemers /Dementia that some emotions can be dulled. I've seen this a little too.
We've got some fairy lights along the trellis by our back window in the garden and some lanterns with battery lights in too. DH put some more in our tiny ape tree on the other side so it's looking all beautiful tonight with a nearly full bright moon.
HVDY Yes, Fluffball is a character* She knows how to get cuddles and attention. When we walk her out on pavement she tries to go up to people and looks for attention and she's always getting strokes from strangers.
It's sad about your brother , but you do your best and there has to be some effort from himself doesn't there. So sad. Although I'm not in Christmas mood it feels more cosy with the tree up. Hope getting your tree up will do the same.
EllieAnne and Nadateturbe Thinking of you both and hoping you're alright.

Well, couldn't take aunt out today as bladder pain this morning. It subsided then came back worse this afternoon. Just feels sore at present so have done absolutely nothing. Have chicken and salad prepared for tea with a baked potato.
Take care everyone and thinking of those not in.Allsorts**Whiff and any not personally mentioned.

Doodle Glad you had a nice evening and meal with your son and his family. Hope you've had a good day today but not overdone things.

Wyllow3 You should be nicer to yourself. Easier said than done, I suppose. You deserve a much better life than the one you've got. You're an intelligent, bright, interesting lady. I keep hoping that one day you'll say you're feeling different about things.

SweetpeaSue So sorry you're having so much pain again. The lights in your garden sound so pretty. We put the new tree up and decorated it. I daresay LittleGirl will pull some of the baubles off (she can't get to the one at her house).

My friend's husband and son came this morning, and we exchanged presents - she's actually my Son1's ex from 15 years ago, so is his age - then I made pizzas for tonight, made the dough etc. I had a strange moment when I couldn't for the life of me work out how to turn the oven on (I occasionally have these moments since the stroke, such as forgetting how to use windscreen wipers, dishwasher, etc). Hope ALL BDers have been ok today x

HVDY Littlegirl will love your tree. I thought Fluffball would have a go at mine but she didn't.
Hats off to you for making the pizza dough! I bet the pizzas were a great hit.
Sorry you had that blank moment about turning on the oven. It must have left you a bit disconcerted ,especially as you've had others from time to time. Easy to say, but try not to worry. You have been such a trouper to come so far from that awful time.x

Willow i really understand these grim days. It’s a battle to get through. I had a nice meal with family last night and managed to cope when I got home.
Sweetpeasue I wish I could see fluffball. I’d give her a big cuddle. I had a nice time chatting with our granddaughters. Not seen them for a bit but they’re both home for Christmas now. Been to lunch with friends today. Church and out to the Hospice tomorrow.
Sorry the bladder pain spoilt your day today. Hope it’s gone now and tomorrow is better.
HVDY you’ve mentioned your son’s ex before and said how you always got on. Nice you got to meet up.
Must be a worry when your mind goes a bit blank for a while. Hopefully it only lasts a short while.
Your SIL is still retaining a bit of her memory then. By the time my brother was in a home he had no idea who I was.
Scaredycat yes we’re pleased with the tree. Decided it was better than a bench because it’s a living thing and hopefully will grow and in time younger family members will come and see it too and know it’s DH’s tree. It’s in a lovely spot. The day it was planted, we returned for a second look to find a young woman reading the plaque. We told her why the tree was there and she said her goddaughter had just died quite young and she thought how lovely it was to have a tree and she’d like to do the same for her. The woman said whenever she went through the park she’d stop by the tree and say hello to DH.
Glad you managed a walk yesterday. I don’t think it’s been so cold today.
Ellie Anne I agree with the little donkey analogy. Me too. One foot in front of the other and keep plodding on. Hope this weekend has given you a bit of a break from the driving.

Hi all
SweetPeaSue- DH is fine thank you. He’s used to the meds it’s just very disconcerting not to have that yearly physical check up- like so many though. My Sis and U are face timing tomorrow so will here more about my niece- don’t suppose it,ll be til the New Year now.
I love garden lights too- but we,ve not had any sun for about 2 weeks so ours are feeling a bit poorly!
Sorry about the reoccurring bladder pain but hope it’s subsided completely now. Hope you enjoyed your tea and have had a nice evening.
Doodle- so glad you were able to enjoy your family meal. Hope you had a good sleep with a nice full tum and memories of the evening.
HVDY- it must be frustrating visiting your brother as it seems he’s hard to help. What is he doing at Christmas? Lovely to share memories with your SiL- I can do that with my friend sometimes about when we were young.
Glad you got the tree up- it never fails to cheer me up when switching the lights on. No Little Girl to attack them- or cat😩
Don’t worry about those little lapses of memory - I think your mind is so full of everything you do sometimes it just has a glitch. I know mine does - I,m not very good at taking in new instructions either. You made pizza dough - that is impressive to me!!!!
Wyllow- I echo everything HVDY said to you. I so wish you could show yourself the same understanding and compassion you show all of us.
If only you could see that you are worth so much more than the life you live at the moment. You have been hurt so badly and it seems that you think you don’t deserve anything better than that. Well YOU DO. Just maybe try some pampering shower gel or cosy pjs . The things that you used to enjoy are still there waiting for you. Sorry again for waffling but we all so want you to feel better- you are kind,intelligent, compassionate and we care deeply.
Candy,Nadateturbe, EllieAnne, Nanny and all wishing you gentle sleepx

I've left it too late to concentrate. Maybe some evasion in that as usually I come in nice and early for me.

Read your days and all the kind words and how you've all been.. I do need to be more kind to me but there's a block. I'll be back in tomorrow, dressing gown day again today.

Night night BD's

SweetpeaSue Jaffa hissed at the tree {grin} when we put it up, but he hasn't bothered to touch the baubles. I think I perhaps need to do more of what I use to do - cooking, driving, etc., for things to stay in my memory properly.

Doodle My SIL has got some long-term memory. It's the short-term that's gone. At least she recognises me, my brother, of course, and her sisters. The story about the tree for your husband is lovely.

My brother is going to have lunch with his wife in the care home on Christmas day. He's always been miserable, particularly about Christmas, but he gets worse. Hope when you speak to your sister later she'll have some news about her daughter.

Wyllow3 Koko, take care.

It's a dismal start to the day, perhaps it will brighten up like yesterday. Going to buy a few stocking filler things from B&M later. Hope ALL BDers manage to have a decent day x

That message was meant for ScaredyCat

Hi all
Doodle- Hope Church was bright and cheerful today- visiting the hospice must give you some comfort along with the sad memories. What a wonderful place it sounds.
You’re right a tree is much better than a bench as it is a living thing- eventually a bench would deteriorate but your tree will still be there in 100 years time!
When our little great grandson who lives away came last year he was enchanted with the memorial trees and wanted to know about all the people.
HVDY- Jaffa was just throwing a warning shot at the tree!!!!
Aren’t cats funny. I feel honoured today for the first time ever one of her Qatar rescue cats came and sat on my lap when I went round for coffee this morning. So lovely to feel his little warm body.
I expect your SiL will love your Brother being there for Xmas lunch- he’s a funny soul isn’t he but hopefully he,ll enjoy it in his own way.
I spoke to my Sister before going over to DD and she said that her DD has a Hospital appt on the 20th but the letter didn’t say why- you couldn’t make it up.
Hope you pick up some nice Christmassy things at the shops- I love those ones that have bits of everything.
Wyllow- maybe it wasn’t evasion just that you left it a bit late.
The time you posted was late for you.
Wish we could unlock the block that stops you caring for yourself . Every life is precious and yours is no different . Maybe have a little think about your shopping day Monday- it would be so nice for you to treat yourself- if we all lived close we,d be round with goodies for you .
Take care Wyllow - you are special.
SweetPeaSue- hope this Sunday is being kind to you.
EllieAnne- have you managed a rest this weekend or seen friends at Church?
Candy - I expect you’re busy with Xmas - hope you are OK.
Nadateturbe- sending caring thoughts
Nanny- have you had some cuddles this weekend? Baby must have grown a lot .
Sending best wishes to all not mentioned and those just reading.

Scaredycat I’ve been out at a carol service today. I took my knitting so if I got a bit emotional I could concentrate on that and distract myself. It worked quite well and I managed to get through the whole thing. Silent night and All I want for Christmas is you were nearly my downfall but I made it.
Nice morning at church and friendly group for coffee after.
Met some nice people at the singing this afternoon and had a good chat. Just realised how soon Christmas is coming and having panic attack about how much I need to do.
Have you been out today?
HVDY does it distress your SIL that she is in a care home. My brother had no idea where he was.
Have you got all your presents for the children sorted. I have so much left to do,
Sweetpeasue hope you have had a pain free day today. Have you been out anywhere?
Ellie Anne have you had a more restful weekend. You’ve been so busy recently.

Wyllow you should be more kind to yourself but it’s easier said than done. Hope things will gradually start to improve for you and you can get more enjoyment from life.

Last night had our Christmas concert with the choir. It went well the place was full and raised over £4000 for a local cancer care charity. They take people to hospital for treatments and provide other services for patients and their families.
When I got back to the car there had been an incident with someone falling into the harbour so the place was full of police fire engine and ambulance. The ambulance was blocking me in so I was stuck . I spoke to the police but just had to wait for it to go away.
I’ve been to church didn’t really feel a part of it though. Have been falling asleep on and off this afternoon. This week is busy up to Thursday but not so much driving thank goodness.
Hope everyone is doing ok especially Wyllow.

Thankyou for asking about me Doodle and Scaredycat
So glad you found a way of coping with the carol- singing Doodle. I too find knitting distracts somewhat. Of all the songs though -All I Want for Christmas...
Not surprised that was a weak spot.
Glad you've seen friends and had a reasonable day. Hope now you're back home you manage tonight. God bless .
Scaredycat How very unhelpful of the hospital not to notify your neice what the appt was about. It's not like it used to be is it? Hoping it's about giving your neice a better idea of when her op will be and it won't be too far ahead.

Not been good day again today. Another ' beaten up with baseball bat' day and gut churning. Tomorrow's another day.
Tired so just a short post. Washing everyone a peaceful night in mind and body. Take care all.x