Suicidal deelings

You are all such kind ladies and I appreciate all you have said. I have made an appointment with a pain consultant at the hospital as I believe I have OA I have multiple pains. As for the GP. Hmm some are lovely at my practice, others are not. It is difficult to get an appointment and that is only a telephone one. Grr!

But thank you all.reading your stories I appreciate that everyone has their tale to tell and life is not easy for most people at the moment. I need to try to be more positive, but it can be difficult when you feel you are at the bottom of a dark pit, with no available light! God bless you all x

Sally

Sally

Hello Sally Come back anytime, day or night, if you need to talk, there is usually someone awake as this is an international forum. It’s horrible and hard to see your way out but you don’t need to stay at the bottom of that dark pit.

I am so sorry that things are so bad at present but that doesnt have to mean they always will be. Talk to the pain therapist, talk to a friend. You are depressed but you can get help. Please find the strength to get it.

Best wishes from me x

Organising that telephone appointment is a great step forward, Sally.
Its very difficult to keep going when life seems to determined to knock the stuffing out of you, I know.

I take my hat off to you, and I don't even wear a hat!

I was initially crying when I first read your post the other day. We have had a very difficult time recently. I can talk the hind leg off a donkey so that has helped me.
I am so pleased you took that little leap for help you are worth it. I am glad you took in the good advice here and hope you continue to do so.

Perhaps we could start a thread to help people who are wading through problems, to encourage eachother.

I've made a doctors phone appointment as well, today, even though it's the last thing I feel up to doing, and I'm expecting zero support from my gp.

I agree with a title something like A problem shared.

Sally and everyone else who is struggling like I have at times it's hard to keep going but it's easy to give up. Having GN has saved me from house buying and selling, estrangement ,illness ,weight lose etc. Think I have been on most forums. But writing how you feel helps. And if I can I try and help in return as I couldn't have coped since my house sale fell through the second time in 2019 and found GN.

Because we can talk there is always someone to listen and help. It's the not talking that can make problems worse. Life is never easy but it's worth every triumph and obstacle. Especially as so many people die young.

I have found over the years that it's takes courage to face what life throws at you. And believe what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. And believe me my life has been far from easy. But life has a way for surprising you and goes in ways you never thought possible.

I am a realist and don't believe at life at any cost. I believe in quality of life. My husband had his life cut short and he suffered . We had discussed if it all got to painful for him I would have helped to end his life and blow the consequences. He couldn't breath and fought for every breath. I told him to stop we would be ok. He died a few minutes later.

So no matter how things look talk about how you feel . I talk to my husband everyday day out loud as it gives me comfort and been doing it for 18 years now. When I talk to him it puts me in mind of Shirley Valentine talking to the wall.

What I am trying to say is no matter how black things seem or are there is always someone worse off than you . So talk and it really does help. Even to a complete stranger that has a weird user name. ?