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Oh Annie, I’m so pleased. How wonderful will it be to get out in that lovely garden! Well done!

Annie some good news for a change. hope they get it sorted for you ASAP after you have waited all this time..
hope everyone else is having a good day

Scaredycat have you been out for a walk today. We went late afternoon and it was much hotter than we expected. Lovely evening here. Just seen two swans and their four cygnets floating past ( sailing, swimming, paddling….I can’t think of the right word ?)
Joce I am reasonably ok in the mornings these days. What I don’t like is if I have had a bad or disturbing dream and I wake with it, I carry it around in my mind for a long time. I am so sorry you don’t like going to bed. It’s awful to feel like that about it. I love to sleep. Sometimes rest doesn’t come. Hope things improve for you soon. Actually Joce I think you have hit the nail on the head in your post to Scaredycat …one day we will get there, and we will. Peace will come at some point. Never lose hope.
Hello GSM hope you are ok.
Annie I think I have lost a post because I’m sure I read about your cross stitch yesterday and posted something about it being a lovely gift for your DGD.
Like GSM I was wondering how things went yesterday.
Wow. Good for you. Amazing news. New doors. Thank goodness. I do hope the new doors come with internal ramps too so that you can get out and back in. So pleased for you.
Sounds like someone else likes your garden, how you must long to be able to get to it. I do hope the new doors are fitted soon. ?x

Evening all x Annie that sounds promising but let’s hope they do what they said ASAP. As for my health worries that’s work in progress. I’ve had the MRI which I’m pleased to say was much quicker than others I’ve had in the past, now I’m waiting to have a chat about it with the GP. Hopefully they won’t mention ops. My symptoms have disappeared obviously anxiety has a lot to do with it, making the physical problems worse. Why are we like that? Thanks for asking anyway Annie.
Hope you’ll all have a peaceful night x

Evening all
Annie- What great news at last someone who understands your needs and listened. Hope the work is done as soon as possible. Won’t it be wonderful to be able to go into your garden again- I know you can do it. MT will be so pleased for you I bet.
Doodle- yes I hope Joce is right we will get there one day- one day at a time eh! We had a walk today locally but yesterday we had a lovely long one by the sea and took a picnic. It was so good to see the sun again. We try and have a day out one day a week and they feel like mini holidays!!
BlueSky- glad you,ve had your scan now and hope your GP appt will be soon . My trouble is if I talk to the doctor I feel reassured at the time but the doubts creep back in after a little while and I,m back to square one. It’s amazing how anxiety magnifies physical problems so much , wish I knew why we feel as we do. I think you are coping really well at the moment.
Joce,GSM,EllieAnne and all the gang sleep well

Doodle your post appeared after I sent mine, how does that happen? Wouldn’t want you to think I was ignoring you! Have a good evening x

Scaredy I’m exactly like you. Once I’ve decided to see the doctor about something and perhaps I’ve had tests etc, like you I’m reassured but not for long. A new symptom sends me straight to dr google and there I go again! Never mind I doubt we’ll change now! Good night x

? hello bluesky. Crossed posts I think. ?
Glad you’ve had your MRI. I hope the results are ok.
DH May have to have a bone marrow biopsy. Neither of us are looking forward to that.
Scaredycat a picnic by the sea. Sounds absolutely lovely.
Have you thought of writing down the health anxieties you have and then sending some follow up emails to your GP?
We often think of further questions after a consultation.
Sleep well dear gang x

Doodle easy for me to say but I’ve heard that bone marrow biopsies are not as bad as we think. I guess it’s always fear of the unknown, I was very apprehensive before my first MRI, but much easier when you know what to expect, a bit like having a baby! x

Hello all. Doodle I’m so sorry about the biopsy, I hope it turns out not to be needed, but if it is then I hope it’s not as gruelling as you fear and that the results are good. I’m the same as you with dreams, I do get some very odd ones out of nowhere and if you wake feeling upset it stays with you for some time. Gardening again for me today while the sun shines (rain tomorrow apparently). I always feel better for getting outside and I hope Annie will be able to sit in her lovely garden before long. Hope you all have a good day.

Good morning all
Doodle- sorry your DH May have to have a biopsy let’s hope it won’t be needed.
Yes it was lovely by the sea we are lucky we have quite a few nice bits of coast to pick from.
When I do go to the surgery I always write down my questions but luckily I haven’t needed to go for ages. I,ve talked to Doc about AF a few times over the pandemic but I understand AF pretty well even though it scares me every time!!
It has helped in the past to write all my anxieties and worries down in a sort of diary. Anxiety creeps up for many things not just Health- but I plod on and am grateful for all the things I am able to do and my lovely family.
GSM- enjoy your sunny day in the garden.
Bluesky- have a good day today
Annie- hope you have a good day you must feel relieved today that at last something is going to happen to really help you.
Hope Nonnie is having a lovely time with her family - what a joy to have them with her again.
Have a good day all xx

Hi all x thank you for your kind words , another positive about
my new doors ? I have no need to keep on about doors !

Health worries, any tests , examinations , bring whatiferires,
what if this? What if that? Mind and body cannot be
separated.

Gardening ? for so many years it was my relief from stress and
worries, looking through gardening books in the winter planning ahead for Spring, come Spring , garden centres, planting then watching for the growth. Oh I miss it.

My Mum would say ‘ I wish you spent as much time tidying up
you house as your garden like your sisters ! So I cross stitched
two works, framed them and hung them in the hall.

‘A tidy house is a sign of an empty life’ and

‘In my garden I will dwell, with daisies, buttercups and sweet
bluebells’, she saw them, laughed and said ‘ I give up’.

Evening all. Haircut day for me today. I am neat and tidy tonight (but only from the neck up) ?
Bluesky I too have read that the biopsies are not that bad I think it’s the thought of it really. DH is very brave. He has been through so many ops and accidents and never complains.
GSM some people say they don’t dream or don’t remember them. In many ways I wish I didn’t. I don’t tend to have lovely dreams. Those that don’t disturb me usually involve having to get somewhere and not being able to or things of that nature, I wake up feeling as though I’ve run a marathon ? Being outside is a good thing. I hope you had a good days gardening and hopefully a good nights sleep to follow.
Scaredeycat I’m not surprised the AF scares you. It has a similar effect to what happens when you have a panic attack so not surprised it’s upsetting. The more you understand what’s happening the better you are able to deal with it I think.
I’m glad you are able to get to the sea. A good walk and some sea air can do the world of good ?
Anniebach can’t wait for the new doors to come. No wonder you miss your garden. It sounds lovely.
DH and I aren’t into gardening but I know many (my dear dad for one) who loved nothing more than a good seed catalogue or a trip to the local garden centre. I didn’t realise you had been doing cross stitch for such a long time. Hope you get out into your garden again soon.
Take care all x

Wishing all a good night’s sleep and pleasant dreams only!

Well, I'm awake for another night, so I thought I'd join the thread. Alternating between sleeping for about 18 hours, or not at all.
I'm not functioning and can't complete the smallest of tasks. Appetite has almost gone been taking Venlafaxine for 6 days as citalopram wasn't working.
What will happen if I'm no better when I see gp again next week? I'm no threat to anyone, just want to crawl up in a ball and sleep.

Hi all x

RomRoot welcome . May I ask ? how long have you had this
depression and has the problems with sleeping started when you were prescribed Venlafaxine or has it been going on for sometime?

Please be assured you will have understanding here x

Thank You Anniebach

I just slept for 3 hours, so will go back in a bit. The sleeping pattern was like this before I started taking any medication.
The symptoms have just gone worse over the past 3 years.
So much has happened that everything built up without the previous being sorted first, if that makes sense.

RomRoot yes it makes sense, do post as often and whenever you wish x

Hello RomRoot. I take venlafaxine, have done for many years. The insert in my packet says insomnia is a very common side effect, though you say you had the problem before, the medication might have exacerbated it. I hope your GP will help. Probably the reason it doesn’t give me insomnia is that I take phenobarb and phenytoin for epilepsy which can make you very sleepy. Thinking of you and hoping you soon get back on an even keel.
Annie I felt awful for saying I was doing some gardening yesterday, I didn’t know it had been such a pleasure for you. Yes my house shows that I spend too much time in the garden, it’s getting a treat today as it’s raining. I’m lucky my husband does the ‘heavy lifting’ in the garden as my dodgy back doesn’t like standing too long and my arthritic knees don’t let me kneel or squat on the ground. Thank goodness for my little gardening stool! I’m more of a potterer these days. It will be so nice for you to be able to sit in your garden when those doors have been done.

Hi all
Doodle- so nice to have your hair done I always look forward to having a chat with mine- he’s lovely. I have useless hair so fine and thin. I always wish I could transplant back the bits that have been cut off.
Rom Root- Hello. Oh dear you must be exhausted. I,m so sorry you feel so awful. I do hope your GP can help you next week.
GSM- you and your DH sound like a good team in the garden. I must admit I would rather be outside than doing housework. I use a little stool too. My youngest son who died made it in woodwork at school many years ago so it means such a lot to
me. Don’t do too much housework today!!
Annie- it’s raining here today - you,d love it!

I,ve been to optician today as I haven’t been too happy with my new specs as they slip and have made a dent/mark in my nose. To my delight they have said I can have a replacement pair so I picked a new pair that felt much better. I was so surprised that they would do this and felt very grateful. Such nice people and a great service. She even said if they weren’t right I could change again!!!! Made my day.
Love to all the gangx

Oh Scaredycat I was so sorry to hear about your son. How precious that stool is. No I didn’t do too much housework today, thought I should leave some for tomorrow when it will be raining again!!!?

Annie I’m glad you are getting help at last. When the weather is good I’m outside all the time.
I’m low today. It’s my birthday and not a special one but it s been a bit sad. Husband and I decided years ago not to give presents because if we need something we can get it ourselves. But this morning I got a happy birthday and that was it. Have had messages or cards from family and youngest son is coming tomorrow so I know I am very fortunate. I always visit a friend on Friday nights so I will go as usual. When I get home he will be in bed and the day will be over.

Happy birthday Ellie Anne! I’m sorry you are feeling low on your birthday, but we are the same we don’t buy each other anything as we decided it’s better to go and get what we like. Hope you are making the most of it.
Scaredy yes such memories, big hug from me
Doodle sorry your poor DH has been through so much, life is so unfair for some.
Annie how are you today?
Welcome to all the new posters.
Wishing you all a peaceful evening x

Hi RomRoot and welcome. Insomnia is so hard to deal with, everything tells you that you need to sleep but you just can’t. My DH and DIL both suffer too.
GSM on this thread we can say if we have good times as well as bad, it’s nice to know you enjoyed your gardening.
We have had some torrential rain today. Instead of watering the hanging baskets I’m wondering if there will be any plants left in them or if they’ll all have been washed away.
scaredycat yes I have a nice hairdresser too. I always feel a bit more tidy after a haircut (but only from the neck up ?)
Your little stool must be really precious to you.
I too have had glasses that don’t sit right. When they keep slipping down it’s annoying, glad you are getting a new pair.
GSM I don’t do gardening but I sew. I will find any excuse I can to avoid the housework ?
Ellie Anne sorry it’s a bit late in the day to wish you happy birthday. Hope you have a good time with your friend tonight and enjoy your son’s visit tomorrow.
Bluesky thank you for your kind thoughts. DH has been through (and still has) a number of health problems (Last GP called him bionic man ?) . He is very stoic and uncomplaining but that said he first started serious health issues in his 40s so the NHS has taken good care of him. He does his best to keep fit and well.
Annie how are things today? It’s been a busy week for you.
Have you spoken to your MT recently. Is she relaxing a bit now the exams are over?
Sleep well all and RomRoot I hope you have a better night tonight.

Hello all Annie doodle got there before me I was going to ask if you had heard from your MT.. hope you are ok today ..

Doodle just how I feel after a hair cut good from the neck up ? are you doing any sewing at the min? I have just made a poof and new cushion for my new settee coming.. try to just keep my mind busy really so up and down, got to keep plodding....

Happy Birthday Ellie Ann...

Welcome RomRoot...

Scaredycat how precious your stool must be. Glad you got your glasses sorted our eyes are so important... I love being in the garden. We have had plenty of rain again hear today

Wishing you all a peaceful night sleep ? all ?