Our surgery has the option of describing the issue via something called e-consult. I’ve used it with good effect for Mr C, it’s easy to think about what exactly the issue is and then describe it. Responses here are either via a phone consultation or face to face if needed, it’s not an email response. Apparently it’s being rolled out across most of the country. It’s not essential, we can still phone. That sort of thing might help nannaval, if it’s not available for you then yes, write it all down, you do sound as if you need medical help, please don’t wait any longer. Good luck.