Black dog gang 2..

So happy for you and Coco Nanny, enjoy and heal.

annie sounds great for you too.

joce hopefully we all have ups and downs, that is how life should be. Both good and bad pass unless you are very, very ill and then you feel nothing, neither good nor bad. I remember when my consultant told me that if I won the lottery I wouldn't feel a thing. I am glad that time has now passed but do need to remind myself that things can be much worse than they are now and I must be thankful for that.

I like the sea but, for me, the best feeling is being on top of a hill and looking at the vast countryside. Even better was the one time we went up in a balloon and saw vast areas of almost unpopulated land. Someone once told me how they had been up in a balloon watching the migration in the Serengati, how I would love that.

Nonnie Wow yes that sounds amazing. I have always long to go in a hot air ballon, maybe one day ..
hope today has been a good day for all.

Hi x

Will phone for x ray and blood test results tomorrow, two weeks since bloods , 12 days since x rays. I have not allowed myself to think about it but am now.

The x rays will not be clear and this will mean traveling to the hospital 20 miles away , possibly having to stay. What ever the cause of the lump in my knee it will need treatment. I can refuse .

My younger daughter wants me to go privately so I will have
a room on my own, goes against all I believe.

Will have to wait for answers then make decisions

Annie please let us know how you get on, fingers crossed for you. If you need a room on your own Annie then why not, nothing wrong with that is there? if it helps you, and it’s what you need..

sometimes annie people need help from other sources. I dont see anything wrong with that. I think its a good idea actually. nonnie hot air balloon...not sure i,m brave enough.

Good luck tomorrow annie xxxx

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i need peoples thoughts. I am collecting coco on Saturday I need a bed for her..thats ok ill go and get her one. and a cat tree...now heres the rub...I have a cat tree but it was tanks. I have it in the garage as every time I saw it i would breakdown. I cant leave it in the garage forever but i really dont think i can let coco have it. I am scared that when i see her on it it will kill me inside even more. I have a special box with a couple of bits of tanks in with strict instructions that i am to be cremated with it. I have all his toys in a draw. I will give coco the balls but i cannot give her the little mice as they were tanks favourite. I was thinking of donating his tree to a rescue place but i will not be able to see them take it....the rescue place agrees that tank has been stolen and it will have been by someone in my village. its called "snuffling" they spot your pet in the window and they watch for weeks and then when the pet is unattended they grab it. It confirms what i thought...i am living near the person/people that have broken me, destroyed me and changed me forever. I am totally changed. xxx

nanny2507 why not wait a few weeks of coco being in your home before deciding what to do with tanks cat tree? You might find when coco has really settled in say in a months time, that you change your mind. Just saying.

Good luck for tomorrow Annie ??????????

nanny

Have you spoken to you GP yet ?

Nanny, sound like sparkly has a good thought there. Just to wait could all seems so much better when coco has been with you a few weeks ..

Any news yet Annie?

annie I used to feel like you do about private medical care but changed my mind when I had to know in advance of a major operation so I could arrange for someone to look after my 2 year old. It was very interesting because the NHS wanted me to go in for 8 days but I had the operation by the same surgeon, in the same hospital, and only had to stay in for 5 days! It was explained to me that paying for the operation was contributing to the NHS rather than costing the NHS. If you pay for something the state would otherwise have to pay for surely you are contributing.

nanny I agree with Sparkly wait and see how you feel when Coco is in your home. Perhaps if you feel the time is right you could let her into the garage and see what she makes of the tree and how that makes you feel. Perhaps it will bring back happy memories rather than sad ones?

Hi all x

I am relieved and cross. When I had the x rays two weeks ago I was told I had a lump, thankfully someone was with me.

Spoke to GP this morning, no lump, she was not happy I had been told I did.

Arthritis in my knee, hip and bottom of spine, so will have
physio sessions at the local hospital, no 20 mile journey, so
relieved about that.

Blood tests show low in protein so the Ensure to be increased to five a day, gulp !

Thank you all for your good wishes x

That’s good news Annie. painful as it is. I have just been to GP scared me I have protein in my water, she said it’s to do with diabetes. Could be a problem with my kidneys. Treatable with meds but need some more water test first should be 30 mine is 60 not sure if I should be worried or not but I am..

Joce, your GP said it’s treatable ,this is a positive.

Yes I am in a lot of pain but after that silly woman telling me
there was a lump and there isn’t I can now concentrate on doing what I can to help myself and forget about the 20 mile journey. Thank heaven our cottage hospital has a
physiotherapy department .

Being low in protein explains my muscle weaknesses but this is treatable.

So two positives

Sounds like you both have answers and that both can do things to improve. Onwards and upwards.

Yes it’s two positives Annie.. I do hope they can help with the pain for you.. and that it improves you mobility Annie...

just me that’s what I do worry more so with heath anxiety. Would be interesting to know if any one else has this, protein in there water..

Annie. Silly woman, causing you to worry like that. I'm glad your problems can be sorted out, though

Nanny. Enjoy Coco. Perhaps you're right to not let him have Tank's toys etc. He would probably prefer his own, anyway, which won't have another cat's scent on them.

thanks all x annie some positives, thats great hope the pain settles. Joce sometimes its just a blip. Hubs is diabetic and once or twice he has had protein in his wee but at the next check it was gone xx

Nanny Aww thanks for that, That’s made me feel better, might sound daft to some but that’s how my HA makes me worry. ?

Annie how are you feeling tonight?

I am ok thank you Joce, tired because didn’t sleep well last night and the GP explained tiredness and muscle weakness are caused by low in protein.

I am also pleased , not in a smug way, when the radiologist said there was a lump I was concerned but decided not to think about it, I did well until yesterday then I had to because the problems caused by the agoraphobia and had to think of the best care for my dogs.

Upset the arthritis has spread , my hands are badly twisted
but ‘what can’t be cured has to be endured’. B

Will have to wait for physio, see what they advise.

Salsa, in honesty I could slap that woman

nanny losing Tank has caused you such sadness that I think you would be better off buying a new tree for Coco. Yes it would be sensible to let Coco have Tanks tree as you have it in the garage but sometimes what is sensible is not the right thing if it’s going to cause you additional stress. You need to enjoy a Coco and not feel sad because she is playing on Tanks tree. Put a cover over it for now and leave it. Enjoy having Coco without feeling any guilt. Love is not limited. You can love Coco without forgetting about Tank or loving Tank less. I hope all goes well for you.

annie glad the news is not as bad as you feared. Hope you sleep better tonight.
joce try not to worry. Treatable with meds is the key thing here. We all have illnesses of various kinds. I am an asthma sufferer. It could kill me but if I take my meds it’s under control. DH has more health problems than most and his nightly tablet regime takes ages as he has so many pills to take. He is generally quite healthy. He takes all his meds and when he has his blood tests they adjust his doses depending on the results. I am sure your GP will sort you out soon. Better to know these things and have treatment. I hope you too sleep better tonight.
I am trying to keep my mind busy so as not to worry. It’s almost as exhausting as worrying ?.
Thinking of you all.

You will maybe sleep a bit better to night Annie hopefully. You should be pleased it’s a relief and I would be angry with her silly woman, and not having to travel will be a bigger relief for you, i have it in my hand they are not so bad but stops me doing some things I used to enjoy doing hope the physio can help Annie.. good night sleep well.. x