Depression

Good morning Mishap. Just caught up. Yesterday sounded a bit fraught and upsetting, I hope today goes better even if you decide not to go to the play. Yesterday must have really taken it out of you. At the moment you can probably do with a day off in between outings.

At least if you do decide to go you should get a good seat with your crutches an' all. Is you your DH going too? If as Agus suggests you leave half way will you be able to go straight home? You'll feel more able if you have a get out route.

(((Strengthening vibes)))!

Mishap, I echo the thought that you are a fighter and you will come through this - it WILL NOT last for ever. Your friends on GN are behind you all the way and wishing we could be more actual help. If I could, I'd be waiting outside to whisk you off home tomorrow when you have had enough. If you decide to go, can your daughter arrange for you to have easier access? Children's Christmas things are so uplifting and joyful if you can manage it without knackering tiring yourself out too much. (((hugs)))

Oh Mishap I do hope you're feeling a little brighter today. I hope you can manage to go with your dd today, as even though it will be tiring, it will lift your spirits.
Sending you best wishes and (((hugs)))

Just adding my support along with others Mishap. Hope your day goes well.

Thanks for your support everyone. I am hoping to go - OH is coming and he will drive so we can leave when we need to, and my DD has arranged for an adult chair for me to sit on as I cannot manage the children's ones.

It is good to have people rooting for me through this minefield - it is greatly appreciated.

Well - I have some achievements for my list today:

- I walked up my lane along the length of my garden - and back again. It is quite a challenge, because, although not far, it is very steep.
- I went to GS's Christmas play.
- I called in briefly at the village market.

I am very very tired now - my stamina is zilch; and I am finding it hard to trust what I have done as being a step forward, as I have achieved things before and then been a weeping heap the next day. But I have to hope that as I gradually do more I will feel able to trust the progress as real progress and not just a positive blip.

I have a new appointment for my echocardiogram and it is before the clinic appointment so they will have all the information they need.

Time for a snooze now I think.

Well done mishap, that definitely sounds like at least four steps forward, so don't worry too much if there's a slight movement in the reverse direction tomorrow, you know now you can do it

Well done Mishap, you may suffer tomorrow, but that's to be expected. Enjoy that well earned snooze.
Mark today down as a positive.

Bravo

Wow, that was quite a day Mishap especially thinking as you did yesterday that you didn't want to go out at all today.

The good days, what you had today, will be come more and more common as you build up your strength and energy levels and you will feel less tired. When you ever hit a slump, remember what you achieved today and know that you can and will do it again.

Sincerely hope you are turning a corner now.

Well done Mishap you're entitled to be exhausted after that!

Fantastic! You must be shattered! A day off tomorrow?

How lovely you were able to go to your GS Christmas play Mishap. Even if you are really tired tomorrow it will be worth it. These are some memories you can't get again. Well done you for getting through it all. I do hope you sleep well tonight and don't suffer tomorrow

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YEHA for you mishap tiny steps I'm so glad you went to see GS play. Xx

That's great . Have quiet day today. I have been recovering well but did too much on Monday and paid for it on Tuesday with my knee being more painful and feeling very tired. I am off to do some Christmas shopping today with D D 3 , she has booked me a wheel chair ! If you hear of a middle aged lady causing chaos in Milton Keynes , you'll know who it is !

It is only too easy to overdo it ginny - hope the shopping trip went well.

I have been quite tired today, but I expected that. Normality is hopefully creeping my way.

Mishap I'm hovering and keeping track of your progress - well done on all counts. As ever, the wonderful Grans are rooting for you

We had a lovely day ,thank you Mishap. I managed not to cause too much chaos ! Hope today will be a good one for you.

Good news today. Seen Doc regarding my hip. X-ray shows no sign of loosening or any other serious problem. Looks like bursitis is the most likely cause of the pain. He wants me to continue with ice treatment for a while and if it doesn;t respond in a few months he will inject it with some goop.

That's a relief pompa. I'd never heard of bursitis till earlier this year, when I was diagnosed. Since then, it seems to crop up a lot. The physio gave me some exercises to open the hips (I know, it sounds gruesome). They helped, but what's helped most is yoga. I know, I know, I'm like an evangelical yoga person but it seems to help so many aches and pains.

Good news Pompa .

Had physio' today and I am progressing with my knee. Bending coming on well. Having some discomfort though and he says my calf and hamstring muscles are very tight. I have some more exercises to do to help these. One of them is a strap around a table leg that I put around my knee and pull to try to straighten my leg. The image of me pulling the table around the house made me giggle. I think this knee will take a little longer than the other one but I'll get there.

Good news all round! December looks to be good month.

Still very much up and down. Had one very bad night when I felt so very ill - sinking feeling in pit of stomach and overwhelming weakness - then a few very weepy days. What a very bizarre and unpleasant thing this truly is. It seems to descend from nowhere and take me over, wiping out the normal me.

Now that my heart seems more settled on the beta blocker, I am risking the anti-depressant - just a quarter of the dose to start with on the GP's advice. I should move on to a half tomorrow if all goes OK tonight and ticker behaves.

I am still in lots of pain with the darned hip even after 12 weeks; also painful knee from doing the physio, dicky ticker and now a urinary tract infection - it never rains and all that. Echocardiogram on Saturday, then arrhythmia clinic on next Weds.

Can't wait to get my life back. I seem to have no stamina at all and have to pace myself to a quite ridiculous degree in order to get through each day. I cannot believe how my life has diminished and contracted. I so hope that one day it will all return.

Sure it will Mishap, you are doing so much better than you were. It will just take time.