Thread two for the 3am crew

A bit before 3 and here I am. Wide awake and frustrated as after entertaining friends this week I’m shattered. I’m not used to making a sustained culinary effort! We’ve thoroughly enjoyed their company, all worth it and well be sad to see them go. It will seem very quiet around here. World issues and health permitting we’ll be on a holiday together later in the year.

Very mundane I know, there is a traditional funeral with a request for formal clothing to attend on Monday and Mr C’s suit is now far too large for him. We’ll venture forth and try to find a replacement, not quite sure where. Mr C frets not about these things and says if needed he’ll wear the old one, yes he could but I’d rather he had one that fits. Daft woman that I am I’ve potential sources clocking up in my head.

I hope those with worries are resting tonight, that your thoughts have settled bellasnanna and for roses there is some real life support. Thinking of you both and all with challenges.

It’s 4.50 here, too early to get up, but I’m wide awake again,
Yes, dear Roses, the wee small hours certainly have a way of magnifying the loneliness and the worries. I’ve added you to my worry list as well.💐

cornergran I’ve been in awe of you catering for guests these past few days. I used to find it easy as I was cooking for a big family, but I find it too much now. I have a lovely friend who comes for two weeks every year but I made it clear she would have to make herself at home and help herself to food. She never stops eating and I just couldn’t keep up with her. I don’t eat a lot since DH died,

I’m fretting about my lovely son and his equally lovely partner who are off to live in Bulgaria, leaving on 31st and insisting on driving there in a very old car (DH’s old Golf). I am in a state about the journey, and how much I will miss them. I’m happy for them but sad that out of four offspring only one will still be in spitting distance.

This all seems so trivial I know, but I feel as though I’ve a huge ball of sadness in my chest which is going to burst if I let it.

I’ve got DD3’s little dog today so hope we can get out for a walk. He’s a feisty little thing with rather too much attitude for my liking but I love him anyway, though why anyone was daft enough to cross a Yorkie with a chihuahua I don’t understand!

It’s now 5am so too late to go back to sleep. I suppose I’d better have a cup of tea. I’m all on one floor now so the kitchen is only a few steps away. When DH was alive we had a fairly large house so he always set the Teasmade up every night so we didn’t have to go downstairs, bless him. I haven’t used it since he died. Sorry to ramble on. I hope you’re all sleeping soundly.😴😴

My poor dear bellas, life can throw some terrible curveballs, can’t it?
It sounds a bit woo woo but can you get hold of some Rescue Remedy, a homeopathic liquid? It should help, but won’t sort out your problems, just make them easier to cope with.
You should try to eat more calories, as you were painfully thin when I met you last autumn.
I shall keep you in my heart and hope that your sorrow becomes easier to bear.

grandMattie thank you.💐 (I’m not thin though!)

Bella 🙏❤️
Thinking of you with your sorrow.

Roses I hope you are getting some support .

I'm awake again but feel strangely rested.
It was the final ceilidh dancing session last night, until October. I danced almost all the dances and even the one I dread. Posties jig.

Tomorrow I volunteer in the morning and have removals guys picking up some big furniture in the afternoon to take to auction.

I hope worries aren't keeping you awake.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=624mKxpiRh4
This has never failed to get me back to sleep

Nannytopsy

Well I haven’t got to sleep yet 😳
I am relaxed, warm, comfortable and pain free (as long as I stay still!) and absolutely wide awake. The ward is pretty quiet but no sleep despite opioids. Should be out tomorrow!
I hope you had a better night Bellasnana

I missed that you were in hospital Nannytopsy get well soon.

Thanks MayBee I enjoyed the video but I am still awake 😂😥 the battery has drained on my phone so it's back to the radio.

Not sure whether to laugh or cry.
I hope we all get a bit more sleep.

I’ve been awake since 2.30, I listened to a podcast for an hour but still didn’t drift off. I’m now downstairs as I don’t want to disturb DH.
I’ve just caught up with the posts from Thursday. I’m sorry that several posters have such real worries.
Life can be so hard and cruel at times.
I hope daylight brings a better day for everyone.

Me too, I missed your hospitalisation, topsy. I hope all has settled down and you are now out of hospital.
May all of you with so much anxiety have a better —night— day.
Shhh, but I seem to be sleeping better atm. I still wake up about now, but then I go to bed early as there’s no point sleeping uncomfortably in front of the tv!
Hugs to all ❤️

Oh dear so many upsets and worries I really do wish you all some peace and less worries and far less health problems My normal quarter to four just playing games on my iPad Hope to get to the allotment today fingers crossed it stays fine

Anybody else awake? My brain has been overthinking for the past hour so I’ve given up trying to sleep. I’m going to make a cup of tea and put the clock in the living room forward. All the others do it by themselves!

I hope you are all sleeping soundly,😴😴😴

I’m awake Bella I don’t usually join in this thread, I did at the beginning but don’t know why I stopped.
You are not worrying about nothing, you have legitimate concerns, your family will be widespread and you are sad about that, anybody would be.
It is a slight bright spot that communication is so easy these days.
You can speak face to face daily , allowing for time changes, if you want but it isn’t the same as knowing you can have a hug if you want one.
Those delightful boys are going to be a huge comfort to you.

My mobile and iPad have changed the hour but I still keep a landline and that has to be done manually as does the cooker clock and two battery wall clocks.
I will get someone else to do those, I can’t reach.
Try to get someone else rest I shall read a while.

Not a happy bunny! I changed the bedroom clock with great effort. I have no real idea what happened or how, but I managed to set the alarm for 0300. Now I can’t go back to sleep in spite of giving myself a good talking to!
Trouble is that I have no idea how to undo it. Impress all sorts of buttons and eventually it disappears,mon,y to happen again when the clocks next change…. 😡
I’m so sorry both of you are not sleeping due to anxiety and sadness. 🫂

Hello UTBB and grandMattie. All of us awake in our little corners of the world.

I’ve got the boys again today as DD3 has gone to Florence with her teaching colleague. I enjoyed having them yesterday but they wore me out! DGS2 in particular never stops! I think he’s inherited a lot of my late DH’s character, always on the go and interested in everything. His brother is calmer and more laid back and obsessed with dinosaurs!

I hope you manage to sort your clocks out gM. I’ve just got the one in the car to do but it’s easy. My cooker doesn’t have a clock and I mostly rely on my phone and/or iPad for telling the time.

Hope you get some 😴😴. I’m not even going to try now.

I’ll have a nap after lunch, bella. I can figure out the other clocks - I seem to have dozens (3 in the kitchen alone) but the bedside one baffles me. But since it’s only twice a year, I’ve forgotten how to do it by the next time, if I ever understood how. It’s more luck that I manage the change! 😆

<<hugs and waves to anyone awake >> ‘morning grandMattie, Bellasnana and UTBB

It’s obviously dark still and very quiet but I’m wide awake 🙄, I presume my bedroom clock has changed the time itself, unlike the ones in my Shed and the car which I tend to ignore so for 6 months of the year they’re wrong!
I’m going to have a nice coffee and snuggle down with my book, if I go downstairs the dogs will think it’s breakfast and walk time, I’m not that enthusiastic to get going!

I've been awake since 4 😥 which is the new 3

After 10 years I think I know how to change the car clock. 😃

I'm being picked up at about 9 by car to reccie a walk we are planning to lead in May.
It's an hour's drive to get to the start. This is the 3rd choice. I hope the last.

I'll make a cuppa and try to get a bit more sleep.

Walk to get the papers this morning… Will it be still dark. Looking forward to a light evening though L shall now spend all dad wondering what the’real time’ is. Drives DH mad.😂

Oh. I thought I’d slept until 7.00, but in fact it was really 6.00. Another four hours.

👋🏻 helloooo!
Inevitability I’m tossing and turning and have now given up trying to sleep, too much whizzing around in my brain 🙄
At least I might find out a bit more at my respiratory clinic appointment this morning and therefore feel a bit more prepared. Luckily I can get there by car/bus unlike if I get referred onto Bristol which will necessitate a taxi. Will face that if it happens.
I hope I get some sleep tonight!

Hello anyone awake. I went to bed early and watched the final episodes of The Other Bennet Sister. What a lovely series.

I hope you are asleep RosesandLilac. And that your appointment today goes well.

I woke at 12.00 for a while and now ŵideawake from 4.00.. A cup of tea I think and a read. I doubt if I will go back to sleep now.

Eight hours straight with just one trip to the loo. Unheard of !
Watched just to episodes of ‘The other Bennet Sister’. Saved the rest for today. Lovely

Well, here I am again!
The appointment went pretty much as I expected, so more scans and biopsies then chemotherapy/immunotherapy so by mid May there should be a treatment plan. I will be seen by oncology and everything will be planned out by them.
It seems a bit unreal, I’m glad it’s not all in my head as I was beginning to wonder!
Just hoping I get back to sleep ….

I am sorry Roses that you are having to go down that path. Having a diagnosis and a plan in place is the first step and having that can being a little calm. I hope you are back to sleep now and can rest. You must have been on high alert for days.
Now the evenings are a lot lighter I am going to try to go to bed later and hope my first waking up gets later as well. I woke at 11.30 and then 1.30 which I had hoped was 4.30 at least.
Oh well Wordle then read.