I long for a sister

I have asked my cousin to meet up for coffee she's not really interested I said the only time I see her is if I go into tescos as she's on checkouts. She don't even want me round her house and we don't live that far but when I see her in tescos she all friendly and how are you so I take it she doesn't want a close relationship

As an only child I always wanted two brothers and a sister and invented them in my head for years. My childhood schoolfriend was the youngest of 5 girls and I always envied the relationship she had with her sisters and though sadly 2 passed away in adulthood I know she is still close to the one directly above her and also her eldest's sisters daughter. My SiL is 3 years younger to me and the nearest I have to a sister but she doesn't live near so we don't see each other often.

Hi yes people don't unterstand even if you don't get on with your sister or brother they are still there in your life when you don't have any and your parents have gone it's a lonely life

bettyboo I am so sorry you feel the absence of a sister like this. When the relationship is good I am sure it is wonderful, but you may be imagining something very different from how some families turn out.
All I would add is that she is NOT necessarily there for you, sibling rivalry or jealousy is not something sisters grow out of and sadly, what you imagine does not always exist.
My sister lives abroad, was always very jealous of me, was extremely divisive when our parents were alive, left me to organise our father’s funeral, flying home 3 days after he died, moaned and accused me of all sorts (I was his executor) and I do not hear from her for months on end. She not infrequently visits this country with BIL and the first I hear of it is usually a postcard when they are home again. I have grown used to it.