Insomniacs not so anonymous!

Can't get Blakes 'Endless Nights' out of my thoughts again

3.45am, mug tea, glad no one around if it means all are sleeping.

Maw I am so very very sad to hear of your loss, please accept my sincere condolences. I’m sure he knew he was loved and cherished. He would have been comforted by your love and devotion. You and your family are in my thoughts.

I am so sorry for your loss"maw* I will light a candle for Paw and keep you both in my thoughts.

Maw of course he knew - in 51 years who doesn't get impatient and grumpy - you wouldn't be human if you didn't but you were with him through it all right to the end and that says everything. Take the time to look after yourself and grieve with your family x

Dear Maw, you will cope by continuing being the woman he has loved for all those years. this is how you honour his memory and after all those years together you must have shared principles . Cry Maw, and be the woman he loved still x

Fifty-one years of marriage! Of course he would know you were there; it would give him comfort and he would feel safe and loved. I hope your family is awake now and you are with them and giving each other support in your grief.

You just trust and believe that ,yes, he did know, he knew you loved him, he knew you were there with him as he slipped from this life and his love and the love of your family will sustain you in the dark days ahead.
Your GN family ,little though we can do physically, will be with you every step of the way.

It’s quarter to five, daughters, sons in law, little grandson, sisters in law -all asleep, wel, maybe not little DGS, and I am WIDE AWAKE.
Did I love him enough, did I show it, was I impatient, was I grumpy, did he know it, did he suffer in those awful hours yesterday, was he truly peaceful and painfree at the end, did he know we were there, did he feel my kiss, hear my “au revoir”, feel safe in our arms before the arms of his Lord reached out to him?
Will I ever know?
Having lost my “other half” my “better half” the father of my children, my love and companion of 51 years, without whom I feel incomplete, how do I cope, do him justice, honour his life and memory, live up to his principles?

Such sad times for so many, it is no surprise so many of us have wakeful nights.
I hope all the troubles become easier as time passes, prayers are needed for many people.
I send my love and warmest wishes to all with problems and sadness in their lives.

Oh no, I just read your post, I am so sorry, please accept my hugs x

Maw, how is Paw ?

I have posted in Soop’s Kitchen.

3.15am, mug tea , will I ever sleep seven / eight hours through the night again.

I usually get off to sleep ok but am regularly woken by my neighbour's squeaky doors! He is up a couple of times through the night and his daughter lives (very) nearby and visits about 6am (!) to see if he's still alive ! He's in his 90's and is very deaf but refuses to wear a hearing aid .... As a result I am woken by her opening doors and asking (shouting to ask) him if he's alright All good and proper, but ... I like to sleep till I wake, not till I'm woken before I'm ready

Thanks Marmight for your comment. My DS is being put through a miserable time. My DinL has become Jekyll and Hyde. Life is not always fair.

Didn’t mean all that to be emboldened but obviously the iPad thought differently. So easy to blame an inanimate object!!

I agree with those who worry more. I worry about most things and there seems to be little time in between one worry and the next. I hate being like this. I used to be so carefree and laid back. ☹️
Very much thinking of *Maw and Paw today. It’s very hard on Maw especially.

Best wishes, Maw. Hope you and Paw have positive news today, or at least in the days to come.

Maw, I hope you get better news today.

Not here in the night, just catching up. Sending love to all who have been awake and struggling, thinking of you both maw, a terrifying night.

Thinking of you all in these difficult times, Maw I hope you get better news today.
I will just whisper, I have slept a lot better this week.

Oh gosh Maw I hope they manage to sort your husband out - how frightening for both of you. Annie hope you managed to get some sleep after your tea. My OH is in Italy this week so I'm supposedly not having to get up at 5 but of course it doesn't work like that does it. Up at 3 for the loo and wide awake thinking about all sorts of rubbish - managed to go back to sleep eventually and then my darling cat decided she needed the tray at 4.50 but her erm 'deposit' got stuck so she was hurtling round the bathroom and bedroom trying to get rid of it. Hence me on my knees with spray and cloths at the usual time - sigh! Rare day off today so going to a garden centre to look at lights

Sorry to hear about Paw Maw. Hope you have some more encouraging news this morning. Annie did you have some rest after your cuppa? NKate what a horrible time for you and yours.... I haven't been on this thread for a bit: moving has exhausted me but it has its upside. I've been sleeping better! I worry about the smallest thing these days; it always seems worse in the wee small hours. At least we are in good company with our mutual worrying!

I do hope you have more positive news today Maw.

It is good to see you posting Annie from what you say your GN friends are helping you through a dreadful time in your life.

I definitely worry more now I am older. I had imagined that being a GN would be full of holidays, days out and enjoying our retirement - in reality it one stressful day after another supporting our DS going through a bitter divorce, where two innocent children will soon be thrown into the maelstrom of losing one of their parents from the home. I could weep, in fact that is what I have been doing since the summer. However like Annie I have been supported by 3 good GN friends which has been invaluable.