Insomniacs not so anonymous!

Wishing you all a better night tonight. I got up at 3 am to sort the litter tray out and then had weird dreams about cats so was awake again before 5 which was better than yesterday's 4 am. Annie I wish we could help you with your reflux problem. Have you tried slippery elm? Very old fashioned I know but my dad (who had 1/3rd of his stomach removed in his late 30s due to a duodenum ulcer so always had problems with his digestion) used to take it. I think you can get it from H&B.

Hello, all fellow early wakers. Quarter to five for me this morning. Could be worse, I suppose. I have a mug of tea, and the tv news with the sound muted.

Hi, anyone awake? I can’t sleep either. 5am and laid here listening to OH snoring for Yorkshire.

4.00am and mug of tea. So tired. Lottie flat out. She sleeps such a lot.

Oh anniebach I am sorry I missed you!
Foolishly got involved with paperwork too late last night as I am collecting the certificate from the Bereavement Suite st the hospital tomorrow morning (this morning!) to register Paws Death on Tuesday so ended up in bed much much later than I meant.
Determined to make the effort to sleep, I did manage till 5 which seems to be becoming my default wake up time.
Not a lot to do around 5 o clock when it’s cold and dark is there? If it was summer Hattie might get an extra walkie but she shot through to the sitting room as soon as I let her in from the garden with a look that said “I am supergluing myself to this sofa - do not attempt to turn me off”

2.45am mug tea , so drinking some Ensure at 8.30pm isn't the answer. Cannot eat anything more bland than chicken for dinner , . This is the only thread where I hope I will talk to myself, it means everyone is sleeping. Lottie fast asleep.

Very little sleep last night, when you live alone and can't sleep it seems as if your the only one on earth , wish Lottie would wake as Honey use to but she sleeps right through bless her.

I too have been up and down since 4am and trying now to find the will to get the ironing board out. Annie your words from Blake are lovely and I am glad that everyone's comments are helping both you and Maw a little through your pain. Life is so difficult for so many for different reasons - whatever they are we feel so alone in the middle of the night. My poor mum suffered all her life with insomnia and depression - she was always relieved to see the new day dawn.

I so agree NanKate with what you say about the support.
Never one to have either a big family or a big circle of friends, I can honestly say I have never in my life felt so “lifted up” by the (albeit virtual/online) caring of others.
Many will have faced or be facing their own tribulations and we each of us is different, but we can relate to the pain of others.
Thank you ALL out there, too many to name, but you probably don’t know how much you are helping.

Been up since 4 and just had my breakfast ?. Going to church today and will say a quiet prayer for all. maw you and annie are constantly in my thoughts. I hope you are both sleeping now. My mind is just going over and over the things that are going on in my life, worrying, as we all do, about my family. Hope all of you get some rest and peace.

4.23 am given up on sleep and I too have a hot cuppa and I must admit a rich tea biscuit. Hope you got back to sleep Annie

Will watch the Remembrance Service on telly instead of walking to the one in our town today, as I will be too zonked to go out I expect.

2.40am, mug tea, still Blake when I wake in the Night.

Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight
Some are born to sweet delight
Some are born to endless night

This morning I went into church whilst it was quiet and peaceful. I lit 3 candles one for my DS and DGS, another for Annie's daughter and another for Maw's husband. I asked that Annie Maw and myself could find some peace of mind. Life will calm down the question is when.

I have found the support on GN invaluable

Beautiful words Annie and so true x

Thank you so much Annie for your kind and wise words, they mean a lot to me.

NanKate, age is just a number, love isn't measured in years , your son is the father of your grandchildren, he is also the teenager who struggled through exams, the child who charged not walked up the stairs and thought all doors in the house could only close if they banged, the little one we held the hand of when taking first steps, the miracle we gave birth to. This is the love that wants to protect , it has no limits . My love x

Good morning Maw Annie and all the rest of us going through sleepless nights and difficult days.

It really hit home Maw when you said about the split second on waking before you realise what is causing such sadness,

My DS is going through a terrible time with my DinL who is emotionally blackmailing him. I have never known him so down and I am worried sick. My DH has gone to stay with him and our young GSs for a few days to support him whilst she is away. When anyone is cruel to our children, whatever age they are, we mums and dads become very protective.

My sister who is on holiday with me keeps saying, tell everyone you are fine and smile more, well I have nothing to smile about and I am not fine. ?

I do however realise that others on here who have lost their love ones and they are surviving. Thank you for listening to me I am just having a bad morning and it’s only 7.30 !

My thoughts with you Annie and Maw. What a long night it's been. Getting up to make tea now.

I have only just read of your loss, Maw. Sending love and support to you. May your DH rest in peace and rise in glory.

Be kind to yourself MAW and take care.
Didn't want to read and not comment. ? x

mawb, my troubling thoughts are minor in comparison. You also keep going. Wish I could offer more than love and hugs to you all.

Can’t keep away.
Not tossing and turning but you know when you wake up and for a split second you can’t remember why you have this huge sadness, then it washes over you and you’re back with the waves threatening to rise over your head.
Oh Anniebach you and the others have faced so much, plumbed such depths of despair and somehow kept going but that feeling just doesn’t go away especially in the long dark hours. For many the nightmare is still going on too.

I know those thoughts, anne, been having a few of my own. Some family issues about that I can’t fix, but how I wish I could. It’s blowing a gale here, it tends to be a windy place but this is something else, it’s not helping. I’m volunteering today, could do with more sleep. Oh well, this too will pass as the quotation goes. Hope you can get around the thoughts and back to,sleep.

I'm here corner but not been awake long.
I have things going round and round in my head, feeling really sleepy but as soon as I put the light out, "ping" wide awake again.
Kindest thoughts to you as ever Annie.

Hello annie and anyone else awake. Hope you aren’t too uncomfortable. Flipping windy here, woke me and now I can’t get back to sleep. Envy you your mug of tea annie, I don’t dare as our kettle beeps oh so loudly and will wake Mr C if I use it. The perils of living in a bungalow. Have slept well the last two nights, so shouldn’t complain. Will get the headphones out and listen to some music. Try to rest if you can, I sort of hope you don’t see this.