Thanks Kate, yes, very sad about Lily, poor thing. I just wish I'd have been there but it is what it is, I would have been if I weren't here.
Yes, I feel a bit better now but won't really believe it until I've got the mask on my face and injection in my hand. I'm to be taken to look round ICU to know what to expect, very scary but them loins will be girded.
or lions will be guarded???
Actually it's been a bit like trying to tame a lion, me being in here, growling from time to time, happy when eating and luring men into my den! (only kidding).
There's only one surgeon willing to take this on as it's so complicated an operation. I hope he has his weetabix before he starts it.
I just want to wake up, the rest I can deal with, pain, physio, emotions, everything. Just get better a bit at a time. It's been a long time being so ill , I am looking forward to being able to breathe better and not be swollen up.
Now, if they could just put a new back in, hip, knee, bowels, hormones and wave a magic wand over the depression and panic attacks/shaking, I'll be one happy bunny. Not much to ask is it? 