Bruised and broken

A companion should be somebody you feel you can talk to. The question 'why is it you feel I'm not the right person ' should be easy to ask a 'good companion '. If you dont feel you can ask, maybe the question for yourself is what is it about the relationship you dont feel safe with?
If you can ask then maybe his explanation will help you understand the reasons he has, and you can make a decision about the future if your relationship from there.

Would also like to add your local library has lists of groups to join. Its getting near Christmas so I recommend you signing up ASAP.
there is so much out there for you if your prepared to take the first step to a new life.good luck.you deserve it and owe it to yourself.

I am sorry he doesn't see the relationship the same way as you do.

Do you do any care for him? Cook, clean, give him showers, etc?

You sound a very caring person and i think you are missing your family too much.but you could volunteer tobe a companion to a lonely person.Age Concern have a scheme where you visit the elderly in their home as they have no one to visit them.its a good idea.so many lonely people have families but dont visit them. Also I think his daughter should look after him now. Also you wont get Carers allowance im afraid.hope this helps.

*No he just comes to my house every day when he’s not going out . We are friends*

You would never get carers allowance.

No where gives any examples of him controlling you.

You say you love him.

You think you should get carers allowance but you refer to herring and tv costs. These don’t constitute caring! You filled in a form for him to get a permit. Isn’t that just a friend geeking out a friend?

I agree with all of the above advice.
I can’t see why you had to have him come to your house every day and bear the increased costs yourself, so it seems you are well out if this situation now.
In any case, Carer’s allowance is not going to pay you any money if you are getting State Pension. Sorry if I am jumping to conclusions. I don’t know your circumstances.

Could you try to develop some interests and acquaintances away from this person? Just something small to start with.

PS If you don't receive something in his will you could feel undervalued and snubbed. I think you tell him you want to be able to remember him with affection after he is gone.

I quite understand how you feel your heart is broken, and I am sorry.
Your friend seems to be stupid. An intelligent man would know pretty well how much you do for him and pay you accordingly. I think you should charge him for your services.

His disrespectful speech to you is something else. Was this unusual? He might have been in a bad mood, or in pain, or anxious, and you could let this pass just this once . If he is disrespectful again express your anger or hurt so he understands you mean it.

You are being used. Leave his daughter to look after him. You are just an unpaid slave. Sorry. But, a very kind, unpaid slave .

I think you sound like a very kind person. However, I also think you are undervalued, and it’s time you thought about yourself more. Without this man’s companionship ( to be honest, sitting in front of the tv all day doesn’t sound very companionable) what can you do that will enrich your life? Have you any other friends? Could you pursue a hobby or interest? I think you need to get away for a few days, if you can afford it, and put this man and your relationship with him into perspective.
Also, to be blunt, if he has a progressive illness he will not be much fun to be with, and you may end up caring for him in ways you would not want, only for the daughter to inherit whatever he has. Meanwhile, your life will have become limited as you have spent so much time looking after him. Best wishes- I hope you can see a way out of your predicament. You’re worth it.

I m not sure whether you are mates, or friends with benefits or whether you d like it to be more. It does sound as if you have a very different take on the friendship/ relationship than he does
Perhaps the lines have been blurred in your wish to look after him and be important in his life as you haven’t seen him for a week I have to be blunt and say I don’t think he thinks about you as much as you him
Perhaps you could withdraw a bit and start doing things for yourself with other friends as it feels as if you’re on a hiding to nothing with this guy

Thanks to you all . I just keep having bad moments but I will get through it . It’s not so much about money but more about me being told I am not the right person .I read that as I’m ok to do it all for free but if there’s any money involved it’s for his family ,. Thanks all I will recover but just keep having bad moments .

He's one of life's takers and has found one of life's givers. I think it's time he learnt nothing in life is free as you've already
discovered this companionship is proving very expensive. I wouldn't allow anyone to disrespect me let alone pay for the privilege. I'd bin him quite frankly on that basis alone, if you miss him that much work out how much it's costing you and tell him what the daily charge is for future visits. Then you'll know how much he values you. I'd find myself some less needy friends on 'meet up' and get something in return.

I suppose a decent friend, no matter how ill ,would offer to contribute to bills.

Sorry posted too soon - friendship has run its course. If you pick it up again it had to be on a different footing. He seems to be using you, friendship is a two way street.

Maybe his family are already claiming carers allowance for him? Sounds to me like this friendhi

I'm sure he'll be missing your companionship soon, Ooeyisit ; you sound like a good friend. If you were to suggest alternating between your house and his for future occasions that would at least mean that your expenditure is reduced, wouldn't it?

With regard to the Carer's Allowance, personally I'd steer well clear of this. His needs today might be only a chat and a cuppa but in the future you could feel morally obliged to perform more personal functions! His comments regarding his daughter would make me think that fond as he may be of you, you're Not Family.

If he is receiving attendance allowance then he should be giving you a wage for the care and "attendance" you are giving him.

It doesn't sound as if he is very respectful of you, your home, or your finances. Is this really someone you feel you want in your life, or is he just better than having no-one?

We all need companionship but maybe you need to look elsewhere.

Yes grapefruitpip my children live a long way away and yes it’s the compsnionship

No he just comes to my house every day when he’s not going out . We are friends

I don’t understand sorry, you have your heating and tv on all day, is he living with you?

I'm really sorry but I am struggling to understand this situation.

Without being rude....what is it you want? A companion?