I feel I can''t cope with any more

I don't feel it is too much, I feel the original post could easily be re written if he OP has the energy.

It's not terribly helpful to say, try the Samaritans but they weren't that helpful. As in all things the people you deal with vary and you may need 2 or 3 attempts before you clock with the help.

Sending a big hug pink I remember your other thread about the grave and how upsetting it is for you please please please get professional help you have had an awful abusive childhood and that will colour your whole life until you can overcome all that abuse
Please, please cut out the nasty family members and contact only the ones you are comfortably with your little sister for one sounds as if you could be a comfort to one another
The virgin bill is ludicrous the same happened to my friend with TalkTalk and they wrote it off completely please go to citizens advice I know they will help you
Lastly forget the awful spelling police you are an intelligent woman with a great career my granddaughter is dyslexic and just got 11 GCSEs As and Bs
I so hope you can get help and overcome this horribleness and find a more peaceful life fir the future
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Phew....to much for us Gnetters to be really helpful. Please seek help from professionals. Samaritans may be first point of call but - in my experience - weren't that helpful. You need to go back to your GP surgery and ask to speak to a different doctor! Take someone with you. Spell out exactly how you feel. I wish you well x

I have messaged you pink, please contact the Samaritans.

You have a lot to cope with at the moment pinkjj no wonder you are feeling anxious and depressed.
Lessismore is right, don't try to deal with everything at once, prioritise your problems then deal with them one at a time. Most importantly get some help for your mental health issues. Good luck.

*spellings

So sorry you are suffering so badly at the moment, and having to face so much turmoil. Youdid the right thing in posting here and getting it all off your chest.

Ignore the ignorant ones who criticise your speelings or grammar, none of us are perfect.

I'd check out the mental health help that may be available through your employer, be it therapy or medication or a combination of both.

As for your family, completely cut the bad ones out of your life, they sound messed up and are not helping you at all. Stick with the onesd who are with you.

Regarding the Virgin bill, well I'd check with Citizen's advice, or a solicitor that offers a free one hour session, some Uni's that offer law courses offer free legal advice, I know mine does. Might be worth speaking to your local councillors regarding this also.

Ah you just get it off you chest, I listened ?.
It does you good to offload and I truly hope you feel a kinship with us all here as anonymous as we are I feel it.
You have had a lot going on and setting it all out is a good place to start making sense of it and maybe deal with some of it too xx

Hi Pink
Im so sorry to hear about all the horrible things that have happened to you and I'm not surprised you are feeling so overwhelmed. Im glad that you are talking to us and i think there has been some good advice written. Do you have a friend you can confide in or perhaps an advocacy service who can support you to get your voice heard.. Im thinking specifically about your G.P as getting a good one may be the route in to getting you the help you need. BUT if you are feeling like you are going to harm yourself go to A and E or call the crisis team in your area or the Samaritans or ring 111.

Do not do nothing! Remember the darkest hour is just before dawn!

Sending a massive virtual hug. Xxx

Very good advice Ellie

Oh, you poor lamb. Enough is enough,there is too much there for you to deal with.
What happened to you as a child was too awful, but,you overcame it and went on to marry.you also battled harder to get a masters,clever you.what an achievement?
.so we know you are brave and resilient.it is very,very hard,but can you let all the nastiness of your life go. The money,the abuse,the insults and the cruelty. It is done and can't be changed,although it ought to be. So,it is destroying your future life. Is there anybody that you trust, I suggest,not relatives, to get some counselling,or cbt,or even hypnotherapy. In my opinion you need to get on forward,and get out of the rut of despair. I also think a gp that is helpful can give you a mild anti depressant. Make up your mind that ,the new you,is going to hold her head high. Not be bogged down by events that nothing can be done again. Good luck. I hope you find the peace you need and deserve.

I can understand how you feel about posting, I too faced a backlash from some people over a grammatical error when I posted BUT I also read some lovely supportive comments, I'm so pleased that you can see kindness here too!
If you work perhaps your employer's or union have assistance available? I think talking things through with someone would be a start and possibly you could then work on each issue rather than face 'the avalanche'.
Mind are very good as are the Samaritans.
If you feel the police aren't helping, Victim Support can also offer advice and support around those issues.

Absolutely nothing wrong with phoning the Samaritans.

Demand a better GP for a start.

How about write out and number each point...
1. upset about grave
2. DIY project
3. Issues with will
4. Hopeless doctor

and so on.....then try to rank them from worst to least. Pick one and try to work at it.

As for spelling.....NOBODY IS PERFECT, although unfortunately some people like to think they are.

May I kindly suggest, you have written a fair bit there for folks to digest.
How about posting a paragraph at a time? There are some really kind people on this forum.

I'm going to be selfish here and say that I'd completely forget and ignore anyone, family or not and focus purely on yourself totally. Without your health you're lost, both physically and mentally so start by shutting everything and everybody out of your life and concentrate on your well-being as only then will you be able to face life and stand up to these trials that are taking over your life.

You need to clear your mind and tackle one thing at a time no matter how long it takes.

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

pink first of all, treat idiots who pick on peoples spelling, as just that; IDIOTS!

It sounds as if you've so much to deal with, it's hardly surprising you feel so down.

Some of it you can't change, however much it has hurt you over the years.

I haven't got any advice really, except to keep on putting one foot in front of the other.

Do you think you'll see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel when you go back to work?

Keep posting here; there are lots of kind, caring people who will be happy to chat with you, about your problems, as well as chit chat, and it helps, if only to distract you.

pink You have been through such a lot. Try again to get help. I have also been through lots of bad stuff as many of us have. I almost lost the plot last year as I became so overwhelmed by life events. Don't let this happen to you. Also don't let people criticising your spelling etc on here put you off posting. It will help to let it out and get some support.

pink what a terrible time you have had. I do think you need to talk to someone and Suedonim has a good idea.
Also what about talking to Citizens Advice about your phone bill and other matters. See if they can help. Shame your GP is not more helpful. Could you see someone else at the surgery?

Pinkjj27 that's just a terrible thing. I am so sorry.

You say your GP is not much good but I see you are a lecturer. Most places of education have a mental health department nowadays - can you approach them for help?

I also lost my sister this year, it's a very painful experience. You have all my sympathy.