Have you ever seriously considered suicide?

No ,I never have luckily.
Judy, I think you need to educate yourself on mental illness. You have obviously very little idea of what some people go through.

I did last November. My darling daughter took her life, she had been ill for ten years, no way was she thinking of herself. I didn’t want to be without her. I had no one to turn to. I reached out here, grans got me through the funeral and the inquest, I was cushioned with such care, such love.

All I can say is reach out please.

My GP said suicide is the permanent solution to a temporary problem..My best wishes t you for a solution to your problems and a happier life

I was at a place where I used to think of ways to end my life that would look like an accident so my family wouldn't blame themselves .Like you I had several really awful years with disasters and tragedies ,I went to the funerals of 17 members of family and friends in 11 months .I was literally at rock bottom.Scared to open my eyes in the morning to face what would inevitably be another bad day .
Thankfully the thoughts remained in my head and I never took action .I didn't ask for help or even tell anyone how I felt but came to the conclusion that the world would certainly not be a better place for my kids and OH without me and I visited my GP and managed with my doctors help and some pills to claw my way back to normality.It took time .Please speak to your doctor dont deal with this on your own.

The closest I came was sitting alone on a beach wishing I had the courage to walk into the sea. I'm not going into the back story too much, it involved my divorce, money worries and a family trauma all happening together. I felt totally alone, and I seriously thought everyone would be better off without me. It was, however, the lowest point and I am so glad now, that I pulled back from the brink.

One thing though for me it wasn't about wanting to die, it was about no longer wanting to live the life I was living. And I know the simple answer, is well change your life, but sometimes it just seems too big a hurdle.

*GP

Not seriously, but having once been a Samaritan, I have spoken to many who have.

I am so sorry you have been feeling like this. It sounds as if you are in a very dark place at the moment and you feel this is the only way out. Thank goodness for an understanding husband. I would suggest you keep talking about your feelings, perhaps to those not personally involved. The Samaritans or other voluntary support organisation is one option. Or if you can afford it and have the energy for it (and you may not) some form of counselling. If you think you really can't cope, you may need antidepressants to help you through so it might be an idea to see your Gap if you have an understanding one.

What stops people? Acknowledging how they are feeling. Recognising you aren't a bad person because of your thoughts. Focusing on something, anything, that could stop you from taking the final step. Remembering that things can change, but if you are dead all options are closed. All difficult to do when things seem black.

Please do not listen to the 'selfish' replies. That will probably make you feel even worse.

I hope some others that have felt like this will post here to support you. Meanwhile, a virtual hug from me.

Judy yours was not the most sensitive post. Selfishness? It is a terrible thing but anyone who does this is generally desperate and may even think they are nothing but a burden to their families. A little more compassion perhaps?

Its not normal to have suicidal thoughts, even if you had a shut year. Even if you haven't acted on them.

Get help
(Not from the internet)

No. Never. Honestly.

I've been told that I am lying about the above and apparently everyone has.....but honestly no never...

Unless I was faced with certain unending torture as the only alternative to death, I find that animalistic survival instinct prevails.

So far anyway. I am aware that mental health can change.

Suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness, anybody that has lost someone will know the devastation of losing a loved one, you would not want that for your worst enemy.

People that die this way must be beyond thinking of anyone but themselves.