Morning Mick and all GN's on this very dark but so far still morning in north Yorkshire. Hope your hospital appt goes well Bella nana
Cant tell lies so cant put good in front of this morning. Had a very poor night, waking a couple of times in pain, but also waking worrying I had overslept. This morning I have to go to the options. The appointment is for 10am but have to be there for 9.30am for them to put drops in. So no good taking a book with me to read whilst I wait, and hate the tension of waiting to start something. I find , now that I am a widow and live alone, that I cant win with appointments and sleep now. Have always preferred to get an early appointment, especially if it is something unpleasant like hospital one. I wake up early worrying about whatever it is anyway so cant concentrate until it is over so go for earliest I can get. However , despite alarm clocks etc, I tend to wake up a couple of times in the night checking the clock and hoping I havent dozed off again.
So today gave up and got up before 5am. Very depressing, living in a flat, dont feel I can put the radio on. (suppose I could think of ear phone but dont really like wearing them.) The forecast is for rain so have to get the big yellow mac out as am now into mobility scooter mode of course. Have a fluorescent yellow beanie hat and gloves. Doesnt do a lot for my hairdo or my fashion sense , but can be seen coming which is more to the point. so it looks like a library in here as I took the opportunity to sort through a lot of books and now have about 5 different large shopping bags loaded with neat piles of books. They range from precious ones that I shall keep but havent got any bookcases sorted yet. uncertain ones - will read and decide if they then stay or go, definitely going to either community centre book shelves or to tesco here who have a good idea where various people from charities or schools or whatever collect a load of books and then they have that book shelf for about a week. they usually charge about £1 for hardbacks and 50p for paperbacks . A very green and good idea. The organisers raise some much needed cash, you get the pleasure of looking through a wide variety of books and supporting the charity and then as I say I either pass them on to another charity or return them to Tesco to do the rounds again.
As a book worm, I love second hand book shops more than new ones as it is that wonderful possibliity of finding some new author that you enjoy. I dont know about any of you but if I find a new author I then devour all the other books of theirs, and am quite sad when I find out they have died so no chance of any new ones. Well I am trying to think of lunch time now, because that will mean I have got through this morning. I treated myself to some thin sliced smoked salmon in the reduced basket from tesco, so intend to reward myself with water biscuits and salmon and I think I shall even award myself a glass of white wine. dont often do that alone at lunch time but am treating myself like a child and telling myself to look forward to that and get through this morning. But oh I am very worried, just hope they say they can operate and it is going to be ok, and not that the diabetes means that they will come back or whatever. Thankyou all for putting up with me rabbiting on. I know on this memorial day for Auschwitz I have so little to complain about and think about how important it is to keep remembering what the Nazis did, and never allow the appalling people who try to say it never happened to gain a foothold. May such terrible times never happen again.
Hope you all have a decent day and now here comes the rain in quite a heavy shower, so I had better look out the waterproofs now.