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I find the discussion about good and evil and how disbelieving people are that LL could do what she did quite surprising.
As I write this somewhere in this country or elsewhere in the world there will be people torturing and abusing other men, women and children - and getting pleasure from it. There will be people sitting at screens watching this happen and enjoying it. In comparison with that what LL did was almost benign. The babies had a short period of pain and then it was over. They didn't live to have the torture repeated over days or weeks or years, or have people pay to gloat over their pain.
We accept that people can be born with physical disabilities, why should people not be born with disabilities of the mind, not physical disabilities, but ones that make them incapable of empathy, or emotion, or indifferent to other people?
The reason, since time began, that societies have evolved moral codes - think the Ten Commandments, is because it was recognised that there were certain types of behaviour and actions that were considered to be beyond acceptable bounds and that there were people who would have no compunction in committing them - and murder was one of them.
LL is just a run of the mill serial murderer. That she was blonde, female and a nurse, doesn't stop her being a murderer. Lots fd murderers were ostensibly kind loving people.
What you have said is interesting - I personally think that she may have a Borderline Personality Disorder, which my daughter had, and as my daughter said (when she was finally diagnosed at the age of 26, after being with MH services since the age of 9!!)
"Today I got a blessing and a curse in exactly the same moment. A blessing, because after years and years I’m finally being understood and my feelings have been validated. A curse, because it’s a life sentence diagnosis and an ugly one at that.
Borderline Personality Disorder will be with me for the rest of my life - be it long or short. It may well be what ends it. This complex psychiatric illness has no cure, and can sometimes be resistant to treatment but I am going to try my hardest to try and make life easier for me and those close to me.
I wanted to share this to help raise awareness for the illness that has haunted me for over a decade, and to fight the stigma attached to BPD and other mental illnesses.
This still doesn’t feel real."
It is very difficult to diagnose - and it WAS a curse for her, and there were times that although she wasn't 'evil', she certainly could be 'vile', yet could also be the most loving and caring person you could ever meet .... what LL wrote, has resonated with me, I have seen similar things written here. It was so bad for her - she couldn't cope when the voices were in her head telling her she wasn't worthy, and she sometimes didn't realise the awful hurtful things she had said particularly to those she loved. Living with it was so difficult that she ended her life. She always said that it wasn't fair that doctors could treat my physical pain, but wouldn't treat her emotional pain ....
As for hospital trusts, this isn't the first one that's corrupt - my local one lied to me when something happened to me; lied to another friend who went to see a consultant about her migraines - he stuck a needle in the back of her head and made it as far as the car park machine before she collapsed, went into A&E who discharged her home and the following day she has what appeared to be a stroke - but naturally it wasn't anything to do with the needle in the back of her head! Another has contributed to the death of my friend's husband and are trying to cover it up - there's no caring or wrongdoing there, they will not damage the reputation of the hospital, end of!