I despair of religion full stop. I was brought up as a practising Christian. In my thirties we lived next door to a lovely lady who was religious, without being tiresome, and I remember telling her that I now queried all the things that I had been brought up to believe, and did, unreservedly. Her reply was that I would rediscover my faith when I was older/old (!) Well, I've news for that long dead lady, I am now old and I haven't, in fact I don't even query any more, I simply don't believe, which is a pity because I would like to, but bottom line is, that I don't.