BLACK DOG 8

BlueSky beautiful day here, hope it is there too. Must be difficult living with a restless man. Like you DH and I are very different, no idea why we get on so well .

To all the overthinkers (is that all of us?) it can be positive, think of all the times you have prepared for every eventuality and one unexpected thing happened that you were ready for. Shall we try to turn this thing we can't help into a good thing?

I've now gone from knitting in DK to 3 ply! My pattern cost 9d.

Been another musing day today so would like to share my thoughts and give hope to those who need it. I have always been the strong one (see Dr T Cantopher's book Depression the Curse of the Strong), always the one others came to for help but it all became too much for me and I tried to kill myself. I ended up in hospital for 6 weeks. I didn't want to die, I just couldn't cope with living. I got through that and have since survived two very traumatic events which most people never experience. I am not telling you this so you can sympathise, I am telling you so you can see that we can overcome anything and live relatively normal lives. There is hope for all. Some of us carry a greater burden than others but that does not mean we have to carry it alone. I am always here for anyone who needs me.

Hi all x

I am the only one here who will not be in the England lockdown, how are you all preparing for it ?

Evening everyone
Doodle Was very windy on the seafront but very refreshing and at least it wasn’t raining.
eilyann Hi, I don’t think I’ve seen you on here before.
Scaredycat Very bracing walk along the seafront. Feet still swollen.
Annie lavenderzen Nonnie and everyone else, hope you’re all doing ok. Sleep well everyone x

eilyann hope you are ok. ?
Scaredycat your GD sounds a lovely person. Hopefully her sorrow will pass and she can look forward again.
Annie I hope you are ok.
Sleep well everyone and I hope you have a peaceful night x

Good night all x

Good night and god bless everyone. Sleep well. Love to all xx

Love to you Annie xx

Good afternoon everyone.
Chrissy- I hope your feet are improved today, elevation is often helpful. Hope you have had a lovely blowy seafront walk - how nice you are able to walk by the sea often.
Doodle - thank you for your kind words. It will take a while for my GD to feel better -the sadness will always be there . I know she,ll be ok eventually she is very much loved and supported by all who know her. I had a better night thank you - I think you are right about the Afib
Annie - I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad . The pain you are feeling will never go away completely but will lessen as time goes by. Sending you lovexx
Nonnie - it was sad news from my GD but she is strong and will get through it.
What a lovely thing you do with your knitting. Someone gets a lovely jumper,charities get a donation and you enjoy your knitting. Your latest one sounds lovely.
It must have been so emotional when you finally got to see where your brother is buried.I,m so sorry you lost him so young.
Bluesky - I overthink everything but the pandemic and everything that is happening is almost too big to contemplate.
Lavender I hope you are having a nice Sunday.
Love to allxx

Annie Thinking of you today

Morning all.
Annie I think that quote expressed so well what you are going through. Nothing we can do will comfort you for that loss but know that we are here and thinking of you. A gentle cwtch and ?x
Nonnie what a brilliant idea. That is such a useful thing to do . Keeps your hands busy but donations to charity at the same time. I’m sure that sweater will be much appreciated.
Bluesky we are living in a strange world at the moment. It is easy to be brought down and not so easy to be cheerful. As you say, the weather does not help. We I’ll get through.
Chrissy enjoy your walk on the seafront. Don’t get blown over it’s quite windy today. Hope your swelling is down.
lavender you always pop in to wish us a good night and I usually miss you so this morning I am wishing you a good day ?.
Take care all x

Morning
Doodle I’ve been sitting with my legs up for most of the time I’ve been indoors. Yes, hopefully a vaccine will be found sooner rather than later.
Annie I’m sorry that you’re hurting so badly. I hope that the feelings will get less even if they don’t go away completely.
I’m sure that everyone is happy with you posting quotes.
Nonnie It’s so thoughtful of you to knit for anyone and donate the proceeds to charity. Procrastination is my middle name. I’m so glad that you got to see your brother’s grave eventually. Glad you slept better last night.
BlueSky Sorry you’re going through the dread overthinking. We are the opposite to you. I struggle with the restrictions but my DH just takes it all in his stride.

We’re about to go for a walk along the seafront.
Hi to everyone else. Have a good day everyone x

Morning all x I’ve been overthinking which with me it’s not a good thing. Weather still not helping, I think it’ll brighten up next week, my DH is like a chained dog, really unhappy about all the restrictions being a social animal. In my case it doesn’t make much difference. I’ve got Facebook friends all over Europe and the feeling is similar to ours, we commiserate together.
Annie so sorry you are sad I send you a virtual cwtch x
Have a pleasant afternoon x

Missed yesterday so have to catch up.

Scardycat hope your distracting news wasn't bad. Your GD will appreciate your support

Flutterby sending positive vibes for whatever your 'situation' is.

BlueSky these days a gall bladder removal is done by microsurgery I believe. Mine was a major operation many years ago but I am happy to tell you that I have been fine ever since. I have a vague memory of DH having a blood test for something which causes ulcers, think it was something like helicobacter.

Doodle when I run out of knitting I post on Freecycle that I will knit for free and when they bring me the yarn I suggest that, if they like what I have made they make a donation to one of two local charities I subscribe to. It's turned out rather nicely, red with a snowman on the front.

I agree, its the getting started is the difficult part. I am getting really good at procrastination.

Annie sorry you are feeling sad. If you have found a way of changing your thoughts please share it, mine come unbidden and don't go away. I understand and empathise with your Tennyson.

Thanks for the messages about my brother, he was on another continent when it happened and I finally got to his grave about 12 years ago. I cried as if his death had just happened, it must have been pent up for years.

Sun is breaking through here, sleep a bit better last night so not feeling too bad. Off to online church now.

Hi all x

Sunshine in Mid Wales,

lavender thank you so much x, it means a lot to me.
In truth I am hurting so much , so many questions which can
never be answered.

Hope I will be forgiven for posting my feelings written by
Tennyson

‘Of for the touch of a vanished hand and the sound of a voice
that is still ‘ .

Good morning everyone, best wishes to all.

Annie thinking of you today and sending love and (((hugs))) xx

You too lavender x

Sleep well everyone. Good night and god bless. Love to all xx

We’re always around somewhere Chrissy ?
I’m glad you feel the acupuncture might be of help. Hope you will get back to it after lockdown. My DH has swollen ankles a lot. Try sitting with your feet up for a while.
Yes it looks as though we will be in lockdown again. Take heart though, there is talk of vaccine so we must hope for that and try and keep ourselves safe.
scaredycat I am sorry your DGD is sad. It is hard for us too when our loved ones are in pain. I hope her hurt fades and she feels happier soon.
Sorry your A fib is playing up again. Do you think your worry about your DGD might have triggered it? Hope you have a better night tonight.
Annie hope you have had a better day today.
Take care all the BDG. Sleep well xx

Where is everyone, you’ve all disappeared
Scaredycat yes some needles go in my feet. I’ve kept my legs elevated for most of today, hopefully the swelling will go down soon. Unfortunately not be able to carry on with acupuncture now we’re going into lockdown, hopefully will be able to carry on with it in December. Sorry to hear that the Afib woke you so early this morning.

I hope everyone else is ok, sleep well everyone x

Good afternoon everybody
Annie - so nice to have you back. It’s been raining here too but at last the sun has made an appearance. I think the whole world is in turmoil there are so many sad and bad things happening. We must just do the best we can and enjoy the good things when they happen.
Bluesky - I think many of us are feeling low at the moment even those that don,t normally worry too much. Annie is right we must change our thoughts and focus on the good stuff.
Doodle -my DGD is ok but having to deal with something very sad for her that only time will heal.She has enormous strength of character and still thinks of others in the middle of her sadness. As you say life is difficult but some people have such a lot to bear.
Chrissy- my DGD just needs time and TLC to recover from this past week. Thank you.
Yes looks like Lockdown is coming - I feel quite relieved as something must be done before the situation gets any worse. If only everyone obeyed the rules and used their common sense.
Do the needles go into your feet? I wouldn,t worry too much as feet do swell from time to time. Maybe elevate them in the evening might help.
I,m very tired today as AFib woke me at 4 am so that was the end of sleep!! It stopped after 4 hours thank goodness.It’s been good lately but feeling anxious doesn’t help at all. Ok now though just a bit worn out.
Take care everyone and hope you have a niceceveningxxx

Afternoon everyone
Scaredycat I’m so sorry that the sad news was about one of your Granddaughters. I hope that whatever it is can be sorted out.
Annie Hope you’re feeling less sad. Also raining in southern England, been like it for days now. Another good saying from you about our thoughts impacting on our lives.
BlueSky we can’t always see the reason for feeling low, this happens to me as well. I hope you feel a bit better later.

Hello to everyone else.

So it looks like England could be on lockdown for a month from Monday. I suppose that means long queues outside supermarkets again. Let’s hope that everyone does or doesn’t do what they’re supposed to then maybe we can get on top of the virus enough to not have heavy restrictions over Christmas.

I had my second session of acupuncture on Thursday and I think it’s starting to help with my anxiety. What I have noticed is that the top of my feet are a bit swollen. I asked the acupuncturist if it could be connected to the needles, she said no. She felt it and said it’s fluid. I might have to contact the GP surgery if it doesn’t go down.

Have a good day everyone.

scaredycat I hope your DGD is ok and whatever it is she will come through ok. Not surprised you are worried. Take care.
Annie it’s pouring here too. Dismal and dark.
Life is difficult. Hopefully we are getting closer to a vaccination.
Take care all. x

BlueSky the country is in turmoil, don’t go there, don’t do
that, don’t make plans, we are ‘in the unknown ‘, x

Morning all x Hi Annie yes the weather doesn’t help at the moment does it? Or maybe it’s better as if we had nice weather everybody would be trying to flock to the seaside or beauty spots! You are so right, “Change your thoughts ...” feeling low and I don’t have any real problems to feel that way. Hope you’ll all have a peaceful day x Take care x

‘Change your thoughts and you change your world’

Norman Vincent Peale

Hi all x

Raining in Mid Wales !