Black Dog Gang 7

Please don’t apologise BlueSky on both I had endoscopy,
but a CT scan will find the same , suppose endoscopy was easier because it was carried out by a GP.

Thanks Annie x

Hello all went with the councillor this morning he seems to know what he’s doing. He did make a lot of sense so fingers crossed, going to be a long job.. ??

Joyce great , x

Thank you all for replying

Scaredycat Thank you for your good wishes.

Doodle I hope you’ve had a lovely day at the coast, it’s been beautiful here. We went for a walk along the prom. I like the term ‘wobbles’ (Weebles wobble but they don’t fall down ?)

Anniebach The thought of death terrifies me. I know how I describe my issues doesn’t make sense, I’ve always been told this by friends and family.

Joce345 I know what you mean, I’m also scared of death. You’re absolutely right, we have to keep plodding on. I’m so glad that all went well with the counsellor today.

Purplepixie I hope your doctor’s appointment went well.

Can I ask why this thread is called Black Dog Gang 7, it’s the 7 that’s making me confused. Is it because there are usually 7 of you posting here?

Chrissy thank you for explaining, it does make sense x

This thread is Black Dog 7, the first thread Black Dog was started by a poster Batty, no longer on this forum. It reached 1000 posts
so the next thread was titled Black Dog 1, so really it’s the
8th thread

Anniebach Thanks for explaining that. I had a sudden thought that maybe there were 7 regular members who posted in the thread and I might have sneaked in ?

I can’t tell you how much it means to me to have you all to talk to. I was feeling very lonely as I’ve given up talking to my family about how I’m feeling. All I get is that I need to change the way I think (if only it was that easy). If that solved everything then none of us would be ill.

Chrissy yes if only it was that easy. We have some good friend hear, there’s always someone to talk too. I find it hard to talk about how I feel or say what’s going round in my head..
just reading what others are doing on hear helps me
I really just wright a lode of rubbish but no one seems to mind
Or they don’t say if they do. ??
We will beat this horrible anxiety Chrissy we have to keep trying..
hope everyone’s had a good day

Hello everyone
Hope you are alright Annie xx I understand your worry about your darling granddaughter going to uni. Oh, how I wish this blessed virus would just go away.
Joyce you are making progress - well done you are getting there.
Hello ChrissyR good to see you here, and Scardeycat Bluesky and Purplepixie - hope your appointment went well.
Did you enjoy your day out Doodle, I hope the weather was kind and you had a good time.
Today has been a mixture of wobbling and trying to plod on, and I have just about managed it! I think what I desperately need is a good night's sleep, which is rare for me .
Wishing everyone a peaceful evening and a good night's sleep. Take care, stay safe and love to all xx

Good night all x

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Well hello all. I’m back from my trip. Beautiful day warm and sunny. T shirt weather. ?
Bad part was that we had to cut the day short due to really bad traffic jam. Decided we were running so late we needed to cut short our visit to get home for our Waitrose delivery. Other than that a lovely day.
Joce and Chrissy please don’t answer if you don’t want to as this is a really personal question. Are your religious in any way? I ask as you seem so afraid of death. Is it because you don’t want to leave your loved ones without you? Please don’t answer if you don’t want to.
Chrissy everyone is welcome here. Annie was here long before me. On the first thread I believe. I joined much later and like you Annie welcomed me with warmth and support. Some people post once and never again. Some pop in and out when they need to. Other read from the sidelines and either don’t want to post or don’t have the courage to post. It really doesn’t matter. What does matter is being here for each other. We have no magic answers but we do understand. We all have different fears and worries but the end result is still the same. Depression, anxiety, despair. Sometimes it helps just knowing you are not the only one and there are others who feel the same.
I wish all of you, dear friends, a good night’s sleep.
I am sending a couple of photos for Annie . Not the Gower coast Annie but the sea. I took them for you.
Hope you like them x

Doodle lovely photos I do love the sea. Pleased you had a good day always nice to hear..
You are right Doodle for me, it’s the fear of leaving my loved ones, never seeing them again. I know we all die, it’s such a terrifying feeling. as for the fear of illness I think it’s a fear of having to have surgery that going to sleep if that makes sense. I have been in the operating theatre 7 times you would think I would get used to it, no it terrifies me.

Sorry Doodle I do have some beliefs.

I have been with Black Dog from the start, there was no way to
know what the reaction would be so I supported Batty, I have
spoken out about mental health illnesses since 1971, I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital because I had severe post
natal depression, I was convinced my baby was going to catch
something awful from anyone who went near her, she had nearly died twice in the first 5 months of her life. The reaction
of people when I was discharged was cruel.

Chrissy Joyce nothing shared here is reason to apologise
and nothing would thought silly, no one will every be told
those brutal words ‘pull yourself together’ .

lavender please take care, packing up a house is exhausting
for those bouncing with energy x

Doodle love the photographs thank you, I do have a love for the sea as I am sure everyone knows, the sea and my mountains.

My mini tornado was coming tomorrow, her car was towed to
the garage, I felt so disappointed but said it didn’t matter she
could come next week. Phone call this afternoon, her partner
is taking the day off to bring her, no stopping my mini
tornado ?

Joce no wonder you are afraid. 7 times in the operating theatre is a lot. But you are still here.
I think we all want to be around for those we love. Nothing wrong about that. ?

Morning all. First of all I just want to say thanks to everybody for your advice and good wishes. I seem to go on about my ailments, perhaps because I can't talk to anybody else. My DH doesn't want to acknowledge illness, I know he worries as I worry about him, I guess it's the same for everybody. Have a good day x

Hello everyone. I hope you are all well. I have been very busy, and tired so I have not posted for a while.
I will post soon, my concentration has been bad and I want to read all the posts properly. Have a good day everyone. Take care.

Hi all x

Rafichagran hello, do take care x

BlueSky no you do not go on about your ailments, you speak of your troubles as we all do, it’s what Black Dog was
started for .

I win the Olympic Gold for talking here, too much at times,
everyone who posts here regardless of what is troubling them
can share knowing , I hope, they will find understanding and
support

Morning all. Hope you are all ok.
Chrissy I think sometimes families and loved ones don’t like it when we talk about our feelings as they don’t want us to be ill so they, not meaning to be unkind, say the wrong things. Our minds work in a different way and it’s so good to talk with people who understand. Thank you all
Doodle that’s a good photo - is it Birling Gap? Being out is so good isn,t it and being in a beautiful place is uplifting.
Joce your fear is my fear ,never seeing your loved ones again . Now the current situation has heightened that fear especially for me as my son lives abroad.
Bluesky everyone here needs to talk especially to others who understand.
Annie how could people have been so cruel. Hope that mini tornado comes to see you today enjoy every minute.
Yesterday was my birthday and our WA so we actually went out to dinner! I was really scared beforehand and the invisible shakes were rampant. It was really nice though as they were very careful and we sat completely on our own. Food was lovely and so was the feeling of being normal for a while. That was a big baby step!,
Have a good day everyone xxxx

Annie you deserve a Olympic Gold, you are my Rock that’s for sure. You could never talk too much x
Hope every ones ok, enjoy your day...

Hi everyone

Joce345 You don’t write a load of rubbish ? You’re right, we have to keep trying. 7 surgeries, that’s a lot, I understand how that would make you fear illness.

lavenderzen Thank you for the welcome. A good night’s sleep was totally unknown to me up until a few months ago when the Psychiatrist changed my anti depressant to Amitriptyline. Since then a bad night’s sleep is rare.

Doodle I’m so glad to hear that you had a lovely day out, the photos are beautiful. I’m not religious at all, I just find trying to get my head around the fact that when we die we are gone forever and the world carries on like we were never here (that is what I believe anyway). It does help knowing that others understand how I feel (not that I’m glad that others are suffering)

Anniebach That’s awful that people were cruel to you when you were discharged from hospital. Have a lovely day with your mini tornado.

BlueSkyI can relate to what you say about talking here as you can’t talk to anyone close to you. My husband has never understood my depression and anxiety. I keep telling him that he doesn’t need to understand, I just need him to listen.

rafichagran Just to say hi

I hope that everyone has a good day x

Annie enjoy your tornado!!

Scaredycat Happy Birthday for yesterday, it’s good to hear you had a good day...x

ScaredyCat Happy Birthday x

Being I think ‘the oldie’ here, may I explain the attitude to
mental illness in the sixties and seventies ?

There were large, old mental hospitals where some people were admitted and locked up for life even then.

People like me who were treated there were not in hospital
they were ‘in there’. When I was ‘in there’ the police force moved us to another town - to save me any embarrassment !

Sorry gone on again x

Annie it’s good things have moved on a bit from those terrible times. At least we are talking a bit more openly about MH issues now.
So pleased your mini tornado is coming after all. ?
Scaredycat happy birthday and WA for yesterday. Well done for going out. Glad you enjoyed yourself. The photos are from Avon beach in Dorset. Lovely place.
rafichagran nice to hear from you again. Hope you are doing well.
Bluesky it is difficult for others to deal with their lived ones feeling depressed. They want to help but can’t. You are always welcome here.
joce lavender hope you are both ok