Anyone with mental health problems? How are you coping?

ps there's a long thread on here 'Black Dog Gang' which gives support for those of us with mental health problems.

I think anyone with fragile mental health must feel disorientated at the moment.
In 'normal' times you've probably built up routines and defences to protect yourself from mental pain. But now that framework has collapsed.
I'm inclined to feel guilty over any little thing, but thank God not too serious.
Jealousy is a most destructive feeling and difficult to oppose.
Perhaps a projection of self-hate.
The only advice I have is to write down these feelings then consider them logically and write that down too. That works for me, but probably not for everyone.
In our community there's a free telephone helpline for mental health problems related to lockdown etc. where you can talk to someone qualified, or just unburden yourself.

Hi XXJaneXX. I'm sorry you're feeling overwhelmed at the moment. Sounds as if you have a lot on your plate. Some good advice here.
I suffered for years with anxiety, depression and BPD symptoms. The last few years I've felt loads better, but my underlying self esteem and inadequacy are so low that I find it very difficult to process good news from certain people without feeling envious/jealous, which is something which distresses and appalls me. I get a painful lurching feeling in the solar plexus, churning, anxiety and also guilt and shame. I wish I didn't, but it's almost a knee jerk reaction sometimes, like panic, and not something I can do anything about. Easy for others to say 'just feel happy for others or you'll be bitter and twisted' - for me it's not that simple and I know I am taking a risk admitting it.
I've felt it on several occasions but yesterday I had more news which put me into tailspin and now I am feeling dreadful and also ashamed because I want to feel happy for them. It makes me feel like a monster, subhuman. It's like jealousy/envy and I just want it to go away, but at the moment it's sabotaging any equilibrium I had built over lockdown by eating healthily and exercising. I don't know how to cope with these feelings. I don't suppose anyone can relate with this at all, because...well, how could they?? What a terrible admission to make!
It feels like a thermostat going out of control; I am hoping that eventually my emotions will ease a little but right now I just feel the pain is almost unbearable.

I wish there was a separate Mental Health forum tbh. People's needs are complex.

Jane, you have made a good start by telling your partner that he has to deal with his mum and family.
Do get in touch with your cpn or whoever is supporting you. These aRe hard times for us all, you are not alone.

Thank you for your reply’s I’ve now told my husband he needs to sort things out for his mum.

I hope that you have been able to make contact with your support network or CPN. Trying to sort out care for a vulnerable person is very hard indeed, let alone when you are unwell. Please make sure you are getting all the help you need.

Bi polar and you are self harming, please contact your mental
health team

Xxjane you need to talk to the rest of your husband's family and get them to take on more responsibility for your mother in law. You don't need any stress at the moment.

I think most people are finding things a bit difficult at the moment so you are not alone, I hope you can find someone to talk to about how you feel. Take care.

I've sent you a pm