Mrsmopp......I fully understand where you are coming from and first and foremost may I wish you well and a complete recovery.
Of course you are mid journey and all these treatments meted out are new to us at the onset, and I know well myself anything new which we do not understand can be highly traumatic.It is wise to get further views and learn all you can so that you enter this course of treatment with your head in the right frame of mind.
I have had several life saving cancers thus many operations and different courses of treatment.
Back in 1986 I had my third cancer,this was of a breast with operation followed by 6 weeks course of Radiotherapy.
I was totally unaware of all it meant,living back then in rather a remote area I did go blindly into it all.
However quite frankly I had nothing to worry about.
The worse parts for me was having to travel some 60 miles to the Specialist hospital,staying in an annexe with 8 others (male & female( from Mondays to Fridays......returning home for the weekend.
The treatment itself I found utterly pain free and takes only a few minutes daily........very much like an MRI scanner,you are in this one room alone with sand bags surrounding the areas that are not recieving treatment,whilst the treatment is delivered by machine controlled from outside.
You are then free to do your own thing until the next day............even travel in daily if close at hand.
The only real effects I found were tiredness as it progressed and at one stage my treated breast became highly inflamed for a little while.
Quite frankly in my case I met and made some beautiful lasting friendships and it was most cathartic being able to talk frankly to one another,voicing our own fears and foibles about the disease...............and everything else under the sun!!
It maybe worth while reading my blog "Is there life after cancer,You bet there is"...........because somewhere in it it gives quite an insight to my own personal walk with Radiotherapy.
I sincerely hope this helps and please feel free to P.M me if I can help further.
I was a counsellor in our own Cancer Centre (that a colleague and I actually planned and set in motion in the 90`s)
Good Luck.