Low mood

Have you had your vitamin D levels checked. A relative was going through what you talk about. Vitamin D levels were very low and now on vitamin D tablets and is in a much better place.

I've taken various antidepressants since 1992, and had counselling as well as other therapy both nhs and privately.

BabyLayla, I truly feel for you. My daughter has similar issues to yours, and told me just this week that she felt ashamed. That is such an awful way to feel, it is an illness as whitewave has said and as you know from your work, though I know it is difficult to apply that to yourself.

Do be kind to yourself, and use your contacts at work if possible to find a suitable professional to talk to.

My very best wishes.

Nothing to do with being a failure you wouldn’t say that if you discovered you had a physical illness would you? Treat how you feel as something you must seek professional help with just as you would do if you broke a leg or found you had cancer or something.

Have you seen your doctor, Layla? Maybe some antidepressants and or counselling will help?
You can't carry on with this awful low moods.