My daughter died ten days ago

Lots of birthday wishes to you.

Lovely to get all the birthday greetings!

Happy birthday alie hope you're enjoying this special day

The best thing - apart from going out for lunch with my sister and partner - is that I am feeling much better physically since my birthday....maybe as I have finished the antibiotics?
I have actually had some energy and mowed half my lawns before it started on the rain!

That's good to hear AlieO Anti-bs can make you feel lousy, hope they've done the trick for you and your health is on the up

Onwards and upwards Allie. Glad you're feeling better, but don't overdo it.

I went to Oxford today and paid a surprise visit to K, taking the makings of Sunday dinner. Sister L was there and we cooked dinner with K helping, and he actually ate properly today.
Baby is lovely and just about crawling, will be into everything soon!

A good day and I enjoyed the drive back in new car...have not been enjoying driving the old one.

What a positive post from you Alie so much better. Small steps though, the baby must be a joy to you all.

Good to hear Allie. And great that you're happy with the new car. you deserve it.

Good to hear from you with some happy news. Alie.

Lovely to read that you've enjoyed today. I'm sure K appreciated your visit - and a nice cooked dinner

Good oh! Beginning to get recover with luck and a fair wind

Great news Allie, it sounds like a positive day. Antibiotics are only prescribed when we need them and they always make us feel worse than the illness they're curing did. Sending positive thoughts

Lovely post from you Allie - glad you're feeling better and that the new car is helping.

Good news Alie. So pleased that you had a good time with the family today and the baby sounds delightful. Glad you are feeling so much fitter. Maybe the enforced rest did you some good.

So glad you have enjoyed your day. That is good news.

Yes thanks folks.....that's the best day for a long while.

Glad your feeling a little better and have had good day Alie

Yes it was a good day but I was very tired yesterday and even fell asleep after lunch....I think I was buoyed up by the Sunday and feeling I had done the right thing and been useful and helped.

But to day I woke up on a real downer after very strange dreams, felt awful.
However, I needed to get out of that mood, got myself out, sent a book to K which may help.
I discovered years ago that the only way to deal with depression is to fight it, when Jayne's brother died.....now i need to do it all over again......
Still very tired though.

be kind to yourself

You can do it - you have been doing so well.

Alie, if you've had one really good day, there's every chance that you will have more good days and with increasing frequency. It will take time and a lot of rest because you have been really ill and very stressed as well as dealing with a nasty chronic condition. If you fell asleep after lunch it was because you needed it. Besides, it's perfectly normal for us 'oldies' to catnap - I do!

Alie m,dear, I've had the "dreams" thing (I think I may have mentioned this before, maybe in a PM? poss. losing the plot!) it is all part & parcel of the whole thing.

I know that you've been through similar stuff before, and know too that you will come out of the other side, but it isn't always a straightforward (in the literal sense) journey. It can be a couple forward, then the odd one back. We can't control it, we just have to be prepared to roll with it as it comes.

Much love to you, as always.

R.

Yes phoenix I remember the dreams being mentioned...I think I know now where these came from, I just needed to mull them over and use a little detective work to see what they were about.....then the extreme emotional stuff fades away. It was bad when I woke up, but they didn't look at all the stuff of nightmares, very strange.

anno I know things are improving slowly. Three months now. I also know it takes a long while....I'll get there, be able to live with it.

Thanks for good wishes folks.