Hello Sally. Estrangement is often described as a living bereavement as we grieve for those still living, who are no longer a part of our lives.
My heart goes out to you. We've been estranged from our youngest son and only GC for 11.5 years, and there are still times when the pain and grief is overwhelming.
Cast your mind back 10 years when this first happened, when you'd have felt that you simply couldn't go on because the pain was so great. You did and you've carried on doing so, so you can do so today.
Your DH being away for the weekend will be making this so much harder but he'll be back. If you're not seeing your DS and GC over the weekend, focus on when you will be seeing them again and look forward to the sheer joy you'll experience when you do.
If you can, find things that will occupy your time and mind to help you get through today. Do whatever you need to do and if that means staying in and having a good cry then do it. Whatever gets you through is all that matters and you will get through this, you've been doing so for 10 years so you can do so today.
Take a look at the support thread on this forum and maybe pop on there. All the regulars live with estrangement and it can really help to know you are not alone
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