Feeling like I missed out on so much in life

I am a Recovering alcoholic now, but in the time I was in active alcoholism I made some very bad choices,ones that I bitterly regret but can do nothing about……”Accept the things you cannot change” easier said than done….

Travelsafar, the Open University was created for people like you.

I wish that it hadn't taken having an autistic grandson to make me realise why DH was like he was. We didn't have a bad life, but it would have been much more enjoyable if I had known why he was sometimes so difficult. There were so many times when I thought he was just being awkward on purpose. If I'd known there were things he couldn't help I could have found ways to deal with them.

I missed out on learning the piano properly - I can play, but only to a basic standard. I had to choose between singing or piano lessons, and chose the singing because I was lucky enough to have a good instrument that needed nurturing - and it has brought me much joy. But I would love to have been able to play the piano well.

I also think I missed out on a lot of fun as I was married to a man who suffered with anxiety. Not his fault I know, but it did mean I missed out on some things.

I was brought up on a farm & I did have a long-term relationship with a farmer's son, but I ended up living a suburban life.
I've done lots of interesting things & don't have many regrets, but I would have loved to have stayed in farming. I'm never happier than when in my wellies & muddy jeans.