I have been thinking about these questions.
I am finding the questions difficult to answer.
The answer to the first question from Cabbie21 is Probably almost yes
The second question, taking If so as if true as this is a Boolean value, and If this is my choice is not either true or false absolutely, but it is how it is and, unlike some media reports purporting rather sweepingly that elderly people are longing to get out and about, I am content and feel no particular wish to go anywhere and I suppose that for a couple of decades I have felt much the same, though did go out from time to go to shops such as B&Q or Currys when I was still driving but really only if I was going to try to get something, not just going out to have a look around. It was not always so, when I was in my twenties and early thirties I often used to go out to places to have a look around, particularly on Saturdays, but gradually I got that I would rather do some gentle gardening rather than go out unless I wanted to get something.
So, as to the question that arises if I get thrpugh the Boolean AND of the if statement, which I will do for this discussion, I get to the question where do you find any meaning or purpose in staying alive?
I am still thinking about this, having already given the question a lot of thought at various times since it was posed to me.
It did occur to me though, bearing in mind how some people say that many of the rules and attitudes in society are due to patriarchy, does that question originate from what might be called couples-archy in that had I been married and written "We keep ourselves to ourselves, we do a bit of gardening, we do jigsaw puzzles together, we watch films together, we watch television news together and comment upon politicians to each other" that such a couple would not be asked about where do you find any meaning or purpose in staying alive? because their lifestyle would not jar with the expectations of the couples-archy that exists.