Perhaps she kept a photo of a wealthy, important man and now realises she was coerced into sex with him.
Women in the sex trade may claim that they are there through their own free will yet, later in their lives, may realise that they were manipulated into doing it and that it harmed them psychologically.
This could be similar.
Why can't I wear this to a wedding?
Ha! Ha! Haaaaaaaaa! An OBE in exchange for the State Pension?



