Sorry my friends but after my dear one having to undergo now the 7th painful treatment today,seeing him so wan, pale and in obvious great discomfort my heart is bleeding.
Whilst he has taken all 6 treatments well and truly "on the chin" without a murmur,this one is so very different.
On meeting with his Consultant earlier this week it was to find the cancer marker much raised again,so until the next marker he continues with this same treatment......as he certainly had a blip last session,so we simply do not know whether the drug is no longer effective,or it could be due to what may have been just an infection.
It is agony not knowing but yet having to watch him suffer so when now any reprieve is in serious doubt is even worse,
It has been a very sobering few days.
But a big thank you for those lovely caring messages,I am certainly buckling badly as my own health is also truly at such a low ebb.
We have the tendancy to pick ourselves up and brush ourselves down normally so hopefully we find the strength to do just this.
I dislike saying it as it is, but also it is some relief to share.
Love to you allxx
The land is dry, and the people are ...stupid?
but onwards and upwards



