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That's great news Annie. You've taken those first steps and your family will be so proud of you, as, I'm sure, everyone on this thread will be too. As I said in the good morning thread, we'll have you in the scooter olympics soon!
Well done. ??
Joelsnan and Willow, ?

Well done Annie . Real progress!

Thank you all x

Have named my scooter. Bluebird.

Watched Donald Cambell’s Bluebird rise like a Phoenix, this morning this song came to me

Bluebirds fly over the rainbow. ?

Have scooter - will travel! Well done indeed!

Oh, Annie I’m sooooo pleased for you!! (I didn’t get back last night as I feel asleep!). Taking yourself by surprise obviously worked and I do hope you have lovely weather today so you can go out again. And again. Local shops next? The library?

Great news Annie x

Oh wow, annie. What a huge step forward. You’ll never forget that first ride on your scooter, no matter how many come afterwards. So pleased for you.

Wow ! How lovely for you to get outside. I am pleased you have managed this outing on your scooter . Taking each day at a time, small steps etc. is a good thing.
I have used hypnotherapy and I found it very helpful for my circumstance so I hope you find a therapy that works for you & keeps you progressing to your goals. Good luck!

Anniebach

Well Done for getting as far as you have. Keep going, you can get back more of your life that you thought you could. You know you can given how far you've already come.

There are some lovely, supportive, posts here that many of us can benefit from.

It's these sort of posts that keep me looking at GN.

What an amazing group of people, willing to share their experiences and encouragement to help others. So much good in the world goes un-noticed, it's a real joy to see the good on this thread.

Annie I am just full of admiration for you! What an amazing achievement you have made! That little taste of freedom is going to (literally) drive you on to even better forays.
My very best wishes to you

So pleased for you Anniebach, breathe in that lovely fresh air and have scooter will travel xx

It was delivered today. I was fearful ,what have I done etc.

The chap who delivered it rang the bell, stomach churning I answer and he had left the scooter at the bottom of the path leading to the house. Panicky, I said could you bring it closer please I can’t walk that far, about 7 feet !

He brought it, explained the workings, lights, horn etc, then i sat in it, off down the path to the another path which leads to the road around the Cul de Sac, i rode onto the road,

It was FANTASTIC, I saw up the Cul de Sac , the light wind on my face, the sun, I wanted to go further , sounds silly but been indoors for so long , it felt great, going on it tomorrow and my aim is to the top of the Cul de Sac. Have several small routes planned.

Felt freedom for a short while. Because I chose one with a high back and solid front, not the pole one I felt safe

Sorry, I should have just replied ‘ the scooter i really nice’ but wanted to tell you what it was really like leaving the house and enjoying it

All this is due to you all x

How’s the scooter?

Yes , the milk bottles rattled when I stepped just outside, I was shaking, now? No problem.

Scooter being delivered tomorrow, fearful but a step towards recovery

Onwards and upwards. But don’t rush it. But you know that already. That milk bottle was the biggest step!

Yes, you must be feeling terrified, Annie but you are taking a brave step forward in wanting to try, so I think you are being brave too. All the best. ?

Thank you Mapleleaf, not brave, terrified, but I want to try

Good luck, Annie. You are being very brave at such a difficult time, but reading your posts on this thread, it really does sound as if you want and feel able to try to make changes. I do hope this therapy helps you. ?

Joelsnan I so admire your fortitude.
Thank you for the explanation, it's helped me make sense of personal situations and guilt that I felt in not being able to help.
I'm sure it's something that many of us dread. X

Anniebach
Good for you!
However nothing is going to frighten you unless you let it, and you know you are stronger than that. You owe it to your grandchildren to show them what a strong woman you are and must act as a role model to direct them away from potential issues that they may have been exposed to before.
You can do it!

Willow500
I do hope your son finds his way through his difficulties. It is so difficult to know what to do.
I brought my son to live with me the month before. I thought he was making progress.
My sister in law lost her husband to the same as my son in April this year, both of us knew they were suffering anxiety but both had no expectation of them taking their lives. My sister in law was told the majority do this as a spur of the moment thing which was the case with my son as i entered my home to the smell of burning food to find blackened chicken in the oven.
It is as though a switch clicks in the brain and it becomes an imperative, at the point of doing the deed they have released so much adrenaline which is like an endorpin and they achieve a euphoric state and feel nothing. I hope this is true. I do remember my sons face looking strangely calm and serene which i could not compute.(sorry for being graphic)

Thank you all x

I have worked out some goals, they will be difficult but so was putting out the milk bottles untill recently .

My son in law who isn’t has assured me he will keep his mobile to hand throughout the day and if anything should frighten me I can phone and he will come immediately.

This morning I opened the living room curtains and my neighbour was walking across the Cul de Sac, I was able to wave and say good morning .

So i will do my best to overcome this for my granddaughter, my two daughters, myself and to show how much your caring and support as meant to me x

If the EFT helps it may help others here or who may join us.

Thank you, i am truely blessed to know you all x

I too send my thoughts to you Joeslnan - there are no words to express how hard that must be but as you say what else can you do but have acceptance that you can change nothing. I worry so much about my own son who is in a very bad place at the moment.

Annie I am so pleased that you have got your scooter and have had visits from your neighbours - it all sounds so encouraging and even though the prospect of going out is still daunting you have now put into words just what the goal is you have to strive to achieve in the next 3 years to be there for your little granddaughter and I just know you'll get there. I don't know what EFT is but I have heard great results can come from hypnotherapy for phobias and fears. To have a neighbour who will come to you to try and help is wonderful news. Go for it

Joelsnan, I had no idea. . I don’t think I’d have had your strength.

Annie*, you slipped into that black hole which can be so hard to climb out of once in. But you’re getting there now. Onwards and upwards.

It is not about putting yourself first, but recognising your limitations at present. It will not be for always.

I am glad you have set yourself a goal and will be willing you to attain it.