Insomniacs not so anonymous!

4.15 and a mug of tea for a change !

O.T. was very helpful , shopped on Amazon with me for things which would help to do tasks which are so difficult, gave exercises to do and is mailing video's of them because I kept getting them wrong. Will call again in two weeks.

I don't like this silence, miss talking to Honey so much, Lottie fast asleep .

Annie, I felt the same about seeing the OT, as I suspected she would be useless too.
However, I was so pleasantly surprised at the help I was given. It wasn't just the practical help, it was the emotional support and just listening to my fears, when I knew I was going to have give up my job.
Let us know how you get on.

2.50am, mug tea. Seeing a O.T. Today, what gem will she come up with , she can't change anything.

Only just logged in although been awake for some time now. Sorry you're not feeling well Annie. I keep some ginger in the fridge and some crystallised in the cupboard for when I have an upset stomach.

Hope you're all having a snooze right now. I'm meeting my sister at 11 to do some Christmas shopping so I don't want to nod off again.

Stay well today and look after yourselves everyone if you're not feeling well or grieving.

4.30am, mug tea and stomach really upset, my own fault, I ate too much yesterday, trying to increase calories to gain weight , tried too hard.

Thank you Maw for your moving comments. You clearly loved Paw deeply and I admire your resolve to continue as best as you can and not give up.

Still awake, just followed you into the memorial thread bikerg, so individual, some harsh comments there. Right, iPlayer for me now. Yes, had my allowance of ‘drugs’, will begin the next lot in a couple of hours and feel no guilt if I go back to sleep then. I’m poorly, I’m allowed .

Bfn..... Zzzzzzz hope you manage to doze back off

Rain lashing down here pattering on windowsill. Think I need my earplugs in! You tried some paracetamol "cornergran" I presume.

Still here. ...... Been watching bit of YouTube ... River dance,flash mobs n bit of line dancing. Ohh and old couples jitterbugging lol

My turn to be awake. Bunged up with a cold and an itchy, sore throat. Looks like it’s catchup tv time with iPlayer and a hope I’ll go back to sleep soon. Hope you’ve nodded off annieand your sandwich proved to be wise bikerg.

Hmm... Nod. = made.

Hello. Not sure of the time, I may be having a one way conversation but hey ho... For the first time in my life t the ge of 62. I got up this ungodly hour nod me cup of te nod a salmon paste butty. Hmm is this wise I wonder.... I shall have a little mooch round gn see what's been going on ......

3.15am mug tea , then two rennies, it's become a way of life .

I do feel for you - both for your losses and also the medical issues keeping you awake. I tried to log in during the night but the iPad wouldn't connect. I was in and out of bed from 2.30 until I finally came down at 5 and tried to sleep on the sofa. We were out last night and I think I had one glass of wine too many so felt very ill all night - not drunk - it just doesn't agree with me any more. Finally drifted off at 6 and had to get up again at 7 as we were meeting friends for breakfast! Bacon and egg after the night I had Hope everyone has a better night -including me!

Oh dear Nankate , I do think if there is one thing worse than suffering oneself, it is seeing our children and grandchildren suffer. I do truly feel for you.
As to whether the sadness will lift?
From the time 44 years ago when we lost our baby son I have learned that pain and loss do not go away, but we become better able to deal with them.
I can never fill the hole in my life that paw occupied and it breaks my heart to know that I can never speak to him again or share the ups and downs of my life, the growing up of our lovely grandchildren and even the current political omnishambles.
But, short of turning my face to the wall, I shall go on as life goes on. And in the same way people learn to walk again after losing a leg, I will learn to cope. But there will never be a minute of my life that he is not still a part of.

I don't think the dark mornings help. Perhaps when the Spring arrives Annie and Maw your sadness will begin to lift. I do hope so.

By then I should know if my DS has managed to cling onto his home, our wonderful GSs and my DinL will have gone to her Fancy Man. 2017 has been a dreadful year for some of us on GN.

4.10am, woke at 2.45 decided to break the routine , not have the mug tea and just relax, didn't work so mug tea now. Don't like weekends ,don't like week days either.

I'm sorry to hear you have all had a bad night. I did get some sleep on and off.
Maw, please look after yourself. Annie, I hope the reflux has settled down a bit. It is so debilitating.
I dreamt I had gone for a routine hospital check up on my hand and the most gorgeous doctor appeared in the waiting room looking for me. It was all so real. I woke up telling my DH that I had to get to hospital this morning for another op and we needed to find someone ASAP to child mind DGD! He thought I had gone mad.

Oh dear Maw, it's often when we're alone that we allow our emotions to surface. If you're able to go back to bed for a further hour or two then perhaps do that.

Oh poor GN friends you have had a bad night. I have not been ignoring you but if I switch on the iPad I know that’s me for over an hour so I try to resist.
Just had another weep - in or on my way to bed or in the car seem to be low spots, perhaps because I am alone or is it the shock wearing off and the adrenaline dropping?
It doesn’t feel like morning as it is still pitch black but I suppose I could get up - but what for?
Wishing all of you inpain, whether physical or emotional, some respite - maybe another ?

I've been awake since 1.30. Catching a flight and waiting for the alarm to go off..... hopefully sleep on the plane. It's a 23 hour flight. Hope you managed to get some sleep Annie?

I woke at 5.00am and couldn't get back to sleep so have left H in peace.
I do occasionally wake at silly o'clock but have had 5 hrs sleep so consider myself lucky reading this thread. I hope you all manage a few hours.

Funny old night. Bit of sleep but not for long at a time. Think that’s it now. Hope annie has drifted back to sleep and you'll get through your day Missadventure. Rest when you can. Frustrating, isn’t it?

I haven't slept at all, yet. I've been wandering around my flat. Really tired, but it'll be time to get up soon.