The first day of the rest of my life..

What a lovely thought about friends Swanny. So glad you have such a friend Maw. We had such friends a few years ago when we were in danger of sinking under a terrible time. As someone else says "this too will pass". Hope Maw and Annie have had a decent night's rest, if not sleep, and have as good a day as it can be at present?

maw I too hope you manage a good night's sleep. Does Hattie sleep near you or on her sofa dog bed?

Hope you get some rest tonight Maw. I’m echoing Crafting’s question, does Hattie sleep on your bed? I know it isn’t everyone’s idea of a good thing but when I’m alone in the house I give the dogs the run of it, rather than in their usual sleeping area (big utility, complete with Cosy dog beds). The big dog chooses to sleep on the sofa, the young softie sleeps next to me. Good night Maw x

I don’t suppose you will feel like GN at the moment Maw and will have a lot to do and arrange, but I hope it helps a little to know that others are thinking of you.Glad that you have friends and family to turn to.

Thinking of you today Maw

Hi maw just to say I’m thinking of you

Hi Maw. Just sending a hug and a

Hi maw some chocolate chip ? to go with kitty's and a dog chew for hattie (unless she shares your bicycles) x

Grr predictive text.... biccies not bicycles Don't suppose hattie can even ride a bike.

Hattie isn't old enough to ride a bike yet Crafting

Thinking of you Maw in the midst of all the arrangements that must be pressing. x

You’ve been much in my thoughts maw as you plan and prepare but I hope too have enough space to reflect on all’s thats been. x

Hello mawb, you’re never far from my thoughts, a along with a to help the afternoon along. Hugs for you and Hattie x

So sorry Maw, just to say I'm thinking about you and saying a prayer. Just be kind to yourself and take things a day at a time.

Thinking of you Maw x

Maw, thinking of you , never far from my thoughts. Do you still have your family surrounding you and taking care of you? Don't forget to take care of yourself in these busy days.

Thinking of you today. x

Sending kind thoughts your way, Maw

maw hope you are ok. Still in our thoughts. Hope you sleep well tonight. God bless.x

So very sorry.

Your in my thoughts too Maw and so is Annie

One week into the rest of my life. The London DDs and I had supper in a lovely old pub last night before I dropped them back at the station.
This morning I filled in one of those stupid online customer surveys and getting to the final section - “Marital Status”
Ticked the “Widow” box for the first time.
Ouch.
Such a maelstrom of emotions, not the “simple” sadness and loss I had psyched myself up for, but I find myself on a bit of a short fuse sometimes which is hard on those being kind to me.
Entirely justified though when encountering poor service or attitudes e.g. yesterday I was buying DD a birthday present in Waterstones and waiting at the till. Assistant just stood there and eventually I said was I in the right place to pay and all he did was point to a sign which said Queue Here for this till.
Couldn’t help it but found myself saying “Oh as you were ignoring me I assumed you were serving somebody else.”
He replied that he wasn’t ignoring me to which I just said Good. (Grrr)
DMWM -new acronym Dont Mess With Maw.

Oh dear - what a rude man. How that must have grated.

Short fuse is fine though - your loved ones will understand I am sure.

The simple sadness must be tempered with the knowledge that the months of ill health are now at an end for him. But that cannot fill the sense of loss.

I take strength from your posts about your caring role and the advice you have given me. I thank you for it; and you are in my thoughts.

Sending kind thoughts

Thinking of you Maw yes ticking that box! you just don't want to do it do you....