How to get back on track

Grannyactivist, apart from an overwhelming admiration and empathy, my immediate response on reading your story was 'this person writes beautifully'. I think you should write a book.

Shed the stress, not shred it.

grannyactivist A very large percentage of PIP assessments have to be appealed and there is a large success rate for those appeals succeeding (which shows that the initial refusals are politically motivated).
Go to the Atos Miracles Facebook page and explain the situation, give a rough idea of where he is, and ask what help is available in that area. You have to first ask for a reconsideration in writing though.
My sister works with people with severe learning difficulties. Many are elderly and so they have carers in their 80s and even 90s. They advise the carers to treat an appeal as part of the process. These are people often with no language skills and who could not thread a needle or understand the concept of scissors. Mental illness is treated the same way (as are physical illnesses).
Your own mood is not surprising. You didn't become stressed overnight and you won't necessarily shred the stress overnight especially as not all the causes have been resolved. Be patient with yourself. I also think that PTSD can have different levels of severity and it is said often to be caused by the loading of a number of different problems onto someone over time. Sometimes these may not independently seem that great and when people try to discuss them they can seem trivial (which is not the problem here) but you may have some level of PTSD. Be kind to yourself.

GA I recognise all that you say so am glad you are taking a few steps back. Even offloading and talking about it on GN can show you what you need to do. You can only take your bucket to the well just so many times before the energy runs out and you also need to allow for refills to percolate through to replenish the well too. Hope you have a lovely holiday and very soon!

Thank you all; I have to say that just having offloaded on here has been very helpful.
Today I would normally be up early walking my son's dog (son is ill - part of the story!!), but my husband took the dog to work with him so I could sleep in - it was bliss. Even the news this morning that my daughter has just been told she's being made redundant has been met with a calmness I couldn't have managed a few days ago. Now that I don't have lessons to prepare today I have time to have a nose around GN and then pop into town for a nice latte.

GA I am also the go to person..I understand completely how you get fuelled by the adrenaline to keep going once the situation eases you are burnt out, I had wondered how you where as I know you have had a spell of ill health, I have never forgotten how by PM your wonderful generous offer to help the young girl we where looking after.It would be easy to say let go of the reigns a little but when a lot of the problems are so close to home it isnt that easy, please try and look after yourself and your wonderful man..( I have one of those too )...you put me and my whinging to shame

GA I have always followed your posts with great interest and admired your strength and generosity.
But now the time has come for you and your wonderful man to recharge your batteries before they wear out completely.
I am pleased that you have a much needed holiday coming up and you have managed to put your teaching on the back burner for now.

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Pleased to hear you have done that ga - a step in the right direction.

As I said on another thread I have been getting one of my DDs to practice saying No; and to count to ten before saying "I will do that." She is wearing herself into the ground helping others. Also woven into her thinking is a sense of guilt at their well-being and comfortable situation and it makes her uncomfortable in the face of others who are less well-placed. I suspect that there is a hint of that in your situation ga. But giving too much of yourself gradually wears you down; and also people begin to have unrealistic expectations of you. Or maybe you have unrealistic expectations of yourself!

Just to let you know I have been thinking about you ga. I think you are right to take a step back and give yourself some breathing space.

Good move ga!

Good post Lucky

paddyann thank you for sharing your experience. Fortunately my Wonderful Man and I are both able to share the load and look out for each other and this has been a great help. We recognise that we need a break and are going on holiday soon.
Luckygirl it's mostly family stuff that we've been dealing with, but some of the difficulties we've faced within the family are also endemic in society.

I've been thinking about what I can shelve to free up a bit more time for myself and I decided to cut out my language classes (I'm the teacher btw) for the time being. I'd already made the decision not to take on any more students before September, but I've now contacted my current students and told them that although I'm happy to meet for coffee and a chat I won't be teaching again until further notice. I'm already feeling lighter!!

It is hard when surrounded by so much suffering in the world I know - but you have to make decisions as to the bits that you can help, and then put everything else out of your mind. It sounds so harsh I know, but you cannot be there for everyone; in the end, for me, family needs come first.

People on the margins are indeed ground down, but you cannot help them all, nor take every problem to your heart - or you will be ground down; and who is helped by that? - no-one.

Maybe it is time to set some priorities that include your well-being. Sometimes being the "go to" person gives others a let-out to do nothing.

Please give yourself some space to stand and stare - it sounds as though you really need it just now.

I've always been the go to person when family or friends are ill or anyone has problems.I usually cope very well even with the most difficult of situations.However afew years ago we had a really long rumn of bad luck , My mums death illness including my husbands heart attack ,both my AC had cheating partners and split from them a family member attempted suicide,a neighbour did some horrible things including sending social services or rather SCPCC to my door with the claim my GD was being neglected ...they saw instantly she wasn't..As usual I got through it all and supported everyone around me.Six months later it was a different story and I became very ill,reclusive ,cried constantly and often went to bed hoping I wouldn't wake up.Thankfully I had a fabulous doctor who helped me enormously,it still took more than two years to get me halfway to being my old self.DONT wait until you get to the stage I did before you ask for help ,get it now.The people in your life will have to fend for themselves for a wee while until you feel able to cope with all the troubles you have .Delegate to anyone who will help shoulder the load .I wish you well in getting back to "normal" whatever that is ,but do it now before you do yourself real harm

I could write a book just on dealing with my mum Kitty, but you've been there yourself so you know how it goes!!! Add into the mix that there's a compensation claim in the pipeline for a fall mum had from a faulty stairlift (she broke her hip) and it gets even more complicated!

Hi ga, I've been wondering how things are.

I suspect you have got the equivalent of the cold dh always got at the start of the holidays. It's letting go or, in our family, 'letting it all hang out'!!

I think imperfect's' advice to just have a check up is sound!

I can't believe your mum - then again, I probably can.

Thanks for your helpful response Imperfect - I think you're right about things catching up with me now that the immediate pressure has lifted. I feel as though I've been firefighting for a long time and now I'm not quite in the thick of it it's maybe catching up with me.

Grannyactivist I am full of admiration for you. The list you gave - which I suspect in reality is longer - is all the explanation needed and nothing to apologise for in any way! I am not surprised you are 'tired' (I would be exhausted!)- any one of these things would be taxing if they were resolvable and sadly, you can see, many are not which adds to the sense of burden. And it is often the way that when pressure finally starts to lift that we find ourselves feeling particularly dinged.

I hope you are able to take a break / find some respite because it sounds as if you do need 'recharging'. We can only give so much and if we empty ourselves out we need someone / something to build us up too.

I hope you can be an 'activist' for yourself and do something that will be good for you. Maybe it would also be an idea to get a health check - if you are feeling constantly tired, there may be an underlying health reason - though just reading your list of giving out seems answer enough.

Take care xx