elegran 
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Here I am, retired. What happens next?
Yes I have volunteered since retiring, and I felt valued. But my knee is playing up, I'm waiting for an operation and I've had to un-volunteer! Shame, I used to value being dependable.
Similarly, I was energetic, known for it. Now I'm not.
I've formed a very happy relationship (entirely non-platonic I'm glad to say) with a great partner. We don't live together. We have a life together and lives apart. It's great.
We go to the cinema a lot, sometimes the theatre, often to live music and to exhibitions. That's fine, but are we just going to be passive consumers of culture for the next 30 years(-ish)? I used to be an active creator of culture professionally. And no I don't want to go on doing that in a lesser way. And Yes I have done a lot of teaching in the past and passing-on of my skills.
I don't have grandchildren, my SO does. That's OK, but it's not a life. For either of us.
Hobbies, I have lots of them. Gardening suddenly seems self-absorbed, selfish and very short-term, bit like running up a hill of sand, you're always sliding backwards, trying to tame the weeds etc etc. Gym, cycling, swimming, hill-walking, love them, all out with a dodgy knee. Yes I could do sit-ups. My main hobby now seems to be decluttering my house, sorting papers etc. That'll end.
I have friends, separate from my SO's friends. I see them often. It's OK.
The CofE Alpha Courses used to have Is This All There Is as their slogan, I think. I have a faith, a Christian faith and I go to Church. That's good.
I've been in psychotherapy often in my life and I am again now. But the therapist is not there to give me answers. Perhaps to help me find answers. Eventually.
Obviously I've chosen a fairly negative username but I'm not depressed, I'm more quizzical / puzzled, ie Is This All There Is? I have been seriously depressed in the past and it didn't feel like this 
Advice? Please. Someone else must have felt like this. Or be feeling like this.
elegran 
I think boredom is a complete lack of interest in whatever it is that one is doing (or not doing). Ennui is the feeling of dissatisfaction brought about by boredom. I bet that doesn't help at all.
It is very hard when one is betrayed by one's own body. I don't suppose that helps either.
Like jeni at 68 I'm still working part-time, and not just for 'pin-money either. I need the extra money on top of my pensions. Luckily I enjoy it very much, I think it keeps me in the loop with the rest of the world. There are several of other oldies, we are the reliable, hard working ones. The rest of the time I see friends, garden, read,shop, visit family in London, go for walks etc etc. I'm quite often on my own but that's ok, I like my own company.
Do you not get very tired? I was fine till I hit 60 but then, for the past year all I seem to do is work and sleep. Can't believe how different I feel from, say when I was 59. But I do have an early start 4 mornings a week and am on my feet all morning; next week I'll have to be up on all 5 days as well. I'm fed up that I don't seem to have the time or energy to do things that I want to any more.
crimson, I assume you've had some blood tests to rule out any cause other than age (!!) for your tiredness?
I think I've seen a doctor about various things more over the past 10 months than over the past 10 years! But they won't prescribe a 2 week holiday in the Canary Islands which is, imo, what I need!
Oh wouldn't it be great? Just a week in Italy would set me up for the winter - especially if I could be instantly transported there without all the airport horror 
Two weeks in Italy would be even better
Somewhere towards the south where it's nice and warm. I've never been quite as cold as in Florence one October; I'd taken summery clothes and it was very chilly, in fact nearly freezing. Some of Italy is quite mountainous and, this time of year, brrrrr.
So let's all head South, like swallows!
And transported back deedaa or the flight and airport would undo all the good!
ISthis, why do you think we are off to Mauritius in February ?
Lovely , lovely winter sun , bring it on , oh yes !
[Sunshine , sunshine]
The only problem that I have found with lovely winter sun is arriving back to a grey, cold, damp England in February...
Who cares , it is worth it ten times over .
Before you can blink an eye . it is March , we will have been to b"ham to see "nips"
then Easter which is early next year , March 31.
So the lovely merry go round carries on .
Joy to us all . 
Maybe some winter sun might cure my "Is this all there is?" blues! Went to La Gomera (Canary Islands) in January once when I was feeling very poorly, as a self-awarded treat before returning to work.
It certainly did the trick! And it was the out-of-season sunshine that did it. It was a luxury hotel, that helped too!
I have written out a heartfelt message and then deleted it. When we were young we were on the brink of so much more, middle age and chlldren swamped the future, and now, yes, this is all there is.
Nanban; I think I hear/understand the message you've just deleted
....
Go for it if you can , ISTHIS . 
Well, I'm off to the n med. don't think it will be warm, but some sun would be nice!
Nanban - yes! 
It will be in the 80"s in mauritius .
Fabulous , Mr will be brown as a berry !
It's all right for some! 
Ana , come with us , can you put up with the heat though , ?????
Be truthful 
If I took a winter holiday I'm sure I'd hit bad weather. We went to Kefalonia one year in September; it was quite cold and very wet, and I felt so cheated; my joints crave warmth these days and, although I never used to be into sunbathing I found that two weeks of scorching heat set me up for the rest of the year. Haven't had a holiday abroad for over 5 years [except a weekend in Paris last year]. I'm sure that's why I ache so much.
Bumped this up for tanglerose....she might relate to some of it.
Mr P and I haven't had a holiday since May 2005.
I too struggle at this time of year, even if you are not a great fan of Christmas, it is a sort of horizon, whereas now is just, well, I can't even think of a way to describe it. This is the first time in many a year that I have not had a job to go back to, it's not as if I have retired, although like some others I do seem to sleep more, but then, there is the school of thought that sleep for the depressed is a temporary escape.
After reading the whole thread I have come to the conclusion that maybe a good education is not necessary a good thing.
I didn't have an inside toilet untill I was 16
I left school at 14 because my Mother went into a mental home and left me with a two week old baby, a sister 3 years younger and a drunk violent father.
Through hard work, meeting the right people, and a lot of luck I was able to retire at 55.
I am grateful for everything I have.
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